Jiayou!!!!

Sitting in front of the laptop , to be frank i reali not in the mood at all...Feel like, dunno la!!!! Is reali hard, is a faith testing period. Is a period that i need to go on, continue to trust in HIM. I reli dunno wat to say, hope to have a you to give me a shoulder. I'm tired, but guide me Lord, let me to live in righteousness and your will...Thz Lord.

A short update....."Finally!!!"

Hallo, it has been a long time i never blog. No time, haha...Which i always tell my friends and mom. haha...The line here seriously is not very well, and some more i seldom on my laptop so hardly for me to go online and blog as well. I am currently staying Kushminz, which a bundle of old friends and course some new one. Enjoy my life here, though need to suffer the traffic jams everyday. But thz God he always with me and sending all my friends with me.

Second year, i would say so far is good and challenging. With all the new subjects physiology and bio chem. Not too difficult for me though coz i learned them in form 6. But yet need to study harder to strike for the best. Jiayou!!!!

The uncertainty ended, which now in a resting potential mood. Waiting for the next action potential. But seem like need to hold it while waiting Him to influx me the ions i need which will last till forever. Waiting is great meant for shifting the lukewarm and for the hunger one. Though will have thousands of stimulations to try trigger it, to see whether it will generate any action potential or not, but i wanna it last long and never go to repolarisation . and Your approval ya. In the resting potential mood always unstable thinking of the next excited mood to come, so give me strength ya and Hold the tension with me together ya, so the best will last!!! ( You might not know what i mean, but i jz wanna vent off) hehe....

Walking closer to God, this year. Really love Him more and more. And hunger for his words more and more. Last time i din und why ppl say they will feel uncomfortable if they dun read His words on that day, but now i know why, coz i have the feeling also. Thank you Lord. I can hardly express all of them here, but through facebook you can see it.hee.....

Lastly, I only have a thing to say: " God is good all the time, all the time God is good" Cant feel my words, ask and you will experience him!!! Jiayou everyone in studies, if you think you are alone here there's a guy who also working hard and going through all difficulties like you together. He not using all his own strength only but the greatest one above him together they go on.. bye lo..See next time ya( which i dunno when also, hehe.) But will definitely be coming back .....God bless.

Random post

Finally the hols come to the end. I am flying soon, so going to miss everything in Malaysia. I think i dont really have a fruitful hols. hehe... Everyday slpt till very late, some more no motivation to write blog. But But But, there're still things that were awesome during the hols. First was the Mission to Bandung. Well, i could say it is not really a vy vy impact mission, but i did learn things. Secondly, the FODC, i jz got back from there. It was cool and great. Meeting people, blessed by the sermons and enjoyed time there with everyone. I think the best for you to find out is to ask me, coz currently i really lazy to blog. hehe, sorry ya. Come and ask me, and i will tell you more than what you wanna know, hahahaha..... But currently there're 2 things in my heart which i wanna share. First "when you think of yourself, think of others" , second one is " No vision, perish then." Mission make my eyes become bigger, my thoughts become wider. FODC makes me see the vision and work hard for it. At here i will say, and i dare to say my 2nd ear will be wonderful. A year with vision and a year which the best things will happen. When i say so i dosent mean no problems, troubles or what. But i will be an awesome year which i will experience new things and learn more things. I think i am excited towards 2nd year, come on man, i cant wait lo..hahaha

A haPPy FAMILY day...YEah!!

Today was a special day:

• It was the first time after a year, again i led songs in Sunday School. Goodness, it's not easy. I found that is kinda hard for me to communicate with them. You know, i gotta talk like a child, sing like a child and act a bit cute, hehe..But don't worry i will be better next week. I like Sunday School, from the children i saw the purest heart to worship God, you all are so so cute..
• After church service, i went and tell Pastor whether could i be the interpreter for next service or not, it would be a great challenge, must work hard ya..
• Then we went to Melaka, Yeahh!!! My mom Asked me twice:"What you wanna buy that make u wanna go to Mlk? " I could'nt think of anything, coz i really have too much. So we walked here and there, and finally went for a movie watching, -TRANSFORMERS 2. But before that we went to play arcade. Haha...It was along time again since the last time i played with my dad. Haha.. We had something kinda table soccer( i dunno how to name it), it was super fun and also car racing. I enjoyed the moment so much....hahahaha. Next time play again ya. Then went to watch movie, was late coz waiting for roti bakar my dad ordered when we had a break in a restaurant.
  
• The movie was nice!! Full with actions, the transforming of the Autobots, and the joining of new members. There're 2 parts in the movie, that i love most: First, when Optimus Prime sacrifice himself to save Sam, and when he fell down and almost die, he kept calling Sam to leave him and run. Second, when Sam was "dead", and his gal fren was so sad and kept saying:" I Love You". As for those who watched, neither of them wanna be the first to say it out. That was a really touching part, Dont care who will say first but say when you have chance, to your parents , to your friends also.
• Then went to eat "wan tan mee", on the way back whenever i saw cars on the road, i was thinking the way they look if they could transform.lolz. Crazy me...

Well, today is a SPECIAL day, a day which is normal but yet full with laughters and grace of God. Sometimes you don't need a big day or special event to feel it, but just slow down and everyday can be a day full with thanksgiving, a day full with LOVE. OH, one more thing, i had my first and second durians today, the smell still in my mouth, yerr... Give face to you dad, i still dun really like durian...haha..Anyway, Thanks God for everything, I LOVE you all...Nitez.



My Family..hehe.

Opening a fruit stall soon...

Today, went to Muar, brought super loads fruits back, i told my parents, we can literally open a fruit stall and sell all the fruits,haha.... Thankz all the relatives for giving us so many fruits, thankz ya..Anyone can come my house and have some fruits....Hope you all enjoy the fruit season ya...


FRUIIIIITTTTTSSSSSSSS....................


the rambutan.


and its frenz. Dunno what name..hehe

Finally.......


The king of the fruits, DURIAN!!!!!

p/s, i dun eat durians, so no difference though....

I found that....hehe

I found that i am a bit uncle...Die lor.. I finished a drama series today,haha, finally finish ady. I have been watching for, i think 2 months, no time what..It is a nice movie, about family, and love. Last time i used to think " having a happy family, a husband who loves me" is a dream only for those little innocent gals...But i found that it is also one of my dreams,haha..("blushing") Today i passed through a photo shop, i saw few family pictures. The hush band holding his wife's hand, their children are so cute and it looks so so warm..How sweet it is!! haha..I hope i can be like that also. I dunno how to say, but i jz feel so warm when i see couple loving each other ,caring each other. Does it mean i have the feeling to get into a relationship har? Dunno, but i just love to see this kind of warm warm picture, haha..I would hope i have someone i love to hold my hand while i am down and happy. I jz hope to have a hug from her, and a firm hold of hand. Seem like this is the first time i am so " yok ma" (Cantonese). Well i just want to be a bit frank toward myself and what i feel. But it doesnt sound like i am advertise myself so i can get attractions from gals, doest it? better not..wakkakaka..Well, actually i am still young la, not even 21 wei, studying would be my main focus point, Doctor will be my aim. But sometime i will still think of it, and i do need this space for me to release it,lolz. But i believe in His time, is kinda hard i tell you. Especially when God says WAIT!!! haha... You see Abraham waited for seventy something years for a son, Israelites waited for 400 years to get out of Egypt, the journey is not an easy way. Sometimes u will fall, sometimes you feel like give up, but He promised those who keep in faith will be rewarded. I thankz God i still have family and frenz. But if God give me a chance to speak out to Him my wish i would say i want: A very very happy and warm family, i would like to have 2 children. I wanna let them learn musical instruments and also wanna let them learn martial arts which i din get to learn. I wanna educate them to the best i can. Most important teach them the words of God, bring them to Sunday school.....Too much man, too much things to do...Then i will also love my wife very very much,buy lodsa nice nice clothes, hug her when i can, kiss her when i find the chance, and together holding each other hands we walk ups and downs in life. And if i could , i hope she dosent have to work and have me to feed her till become fei po..hahaha....Well, i know, know what u all wan to say, think too much ady la..Still very far. But I tell you man, these are somehow a motivation for you to do better in your studies, lolz. For all my friends who having a boy friend or gal friend beside you, treasure them ar, give them a hug when you find a chance to do so, a warm hug. Hold their hand when they need, it will sure mean loads to them.Spend some quality time though sometimes is busy. Dont break up easily, this is a commitment, dont say fall out of love, for only foolish live by feeling. Bless you all ya...It sound like i am giving my final words before i die,hahahaha. K la, i am sure i become more uncle ady la, yerr.....Is late lo, slp la UNCLE!!! Nitez, everyone.....zzzzZZzzz


The love birds at my home..haha...LOVE YOU!!!!

Finally here it comes my update....

I am back to Malaysia for 2 weeks.....What am i doing? Sleep, eat, play, lepak here and there...Doing something i cant do in Moscow, sure have to relax la...haha. Have to treasure the time together with all my frenz, coz they all going to Uni soon. Sigh, after that i will be alone....But luckily i have some great frenz like Tv, computer, piano...haha. Actually my life now is extremely unhealthy, sleep very late, wake up very late. I think i have broken my own record waking up at 3pm..What to do? I have time what..hahahaa. I think this kind of life will end very soon as from July i must discipline up myself, but yet still want to enjoy life.

What i have done....

• Everyday sleep, eat and play...Opps, and watch endless tv shows,hehe
• Join weichun's plans, undergoing something secretly( smile evilly)
  
• Went swimming, i think i would rather say play water, but i must reli learn swimming.
• Join prayer meetings, every Sat morning.
• Have my first trip to Ipoh, have meeting regarding mission, thankz for the hospitality of Saac( Thankz for accommodation), Thankz Marcus and your God mom( thankz for the car trip and food hunting), Charis( thankz for the dinner) and also everyone....I am sure i will be there one more time, dont miss me so much ya..hehe
• Have satey with frenz, cant eat in Moscow leh...Must eat loads la..haha

What i am going to do....

• Have a trip to Kl to meetJunhon, lixin, rachel, maybe caryn nad loads loads ppl....
• Join vashni's plan
  
• Join Mission trip to Bandung, Indonesia
• Join FODC( fellowship of doctor conference)
• Start study a bit lo....
• Practice piano
• Shopping
• Helping my mom do household duties( Dont missund i am doing now also lor)
• Get a time to fix my watch it would be better if can have a new one, hehe
• Time to change a new Hp lor, Iphone 3Gs faster come Malaysia la..
• Keeping in touch with all my Moscow frenz. Jasper i jz feel weird u are not around me doing something stupid..haha
• There are still loads of things i wanna do......and not to forget watch Transfomers, haven't have my first cinema trip since i am back...

Time is good when back to home, mom, dad, sis, bro are all beside me..Miss them so much, gonna use the time to love them more and also bully. Listen a song with yewhui today in car, he likes it very much, i heard and the lyrics are nice...Here it comes ....

作詞：LARA 作曲：張傑

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉


期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

Finally it comes....haha.

Finally have my dinner, it costs 130 roubles( 1 Ringgit=8.885Roubles) . The NASI BRYANI!!!! hahaha...I am going to enjoy it. Thankz Ronald for ordering, Belle for sending and also Jasper for informing( not reli lor..hehe).. Guyz hope you will have a good meal also, but let's thankz God for all these. (praying)..... Dang dang, eat lor...bye. Tcare, God bless!!!

SoLitUde..

23-5-2009



I went school alone today
I missed a station coz i overslept
I had my lunch alone
I came back alone
I sat in a bus alone, coz he seat next to me was wet, no one wanted to sit.
It was a rainy day, i din have umbrella, i gotta run in the rain.....
It was another experience to being alone, you can try
But still good if you have some one besides you.....
I know You are with me., thank you....

A blessing By John O'Donohue
from his book "To Bless the Space Between Us"
published by Doubleday 1st Edition

For Solitude

May you recognize in your life the presence,
power, and light of your soul.

May you realize that you are never alone,
that your soul in its brightness and belonging
connects you intimately with the rhythm of the
universe.

May you have respect for your individuality and
difference.

May you realize that the shape of your soul is
unique,
that you have a special destiny here,
that behind the facade of life
there is something beautiful and eternal happening.

May you learn to see your self
with the same delight,
pride, and expectation
with which God sees you in every moment.

Best things are yet to come...Jiayou!!!

To HER....

Finally here's the post, i have left this blog for quite some time, people busy ma....BUT today i muz blog, for a special woman in my life...MY MOM.

Here's the letter for you..

"Hey, "lao niang" i miss the time i called u like this, people think i am rude, but this is the way we communicate, coz u wun mind..hehe..I miss you mom, i reli hope i can be back to your side, can eat the food you cook, can have your cares, and can have everything u prepare for me. I hope i can jz pop up in front of you and surprise you. Thz for bringing me to this world, it is not easy, thz for the day 14-12-1988. Thz for growing me up, i know it was not easy to take care of a child with asthma. I muz have brought you loads tears, and worries..If not you, i have have back to heaven. THANKZ MOM. I know u always hope i can be the top student and excel in my studies, but i sorry for my stupidity and slow reacting. I would never forget how you canned me, scolded me and all these were just because you love me too much. If not you i think i cant even studying here to become a doctor. What make me touched was every time when after canning me, you will prepare me "milo" and food, and i can know that how pain ur heart was when you canned me . I even saw you cried after canning me. Sorry mom... When i was in secondary school, you were so worried that i would have mingled with bad company, until my friends never want to invite me out, coz you will never say YES.( unless special case) But what i saw was , u grdually become lenient as i grow older. Then i understand you have your time. THANKZ mom, i am sorry i quarreled with you, i am sorry i shouted at you, i am sorry that i said i will never want to have a mom like you...MOM SORRY!!! I am glad you let me learn piano, i am glad you never listen to me when i said i wanna give up, but just tell me to continue, if not you i cant be what i am today. When i finished form 6 which my result was not good enough to enter Medical Course of local Uni, suprisingly you agreed to let me further my studies in Russia. You never complain anything, but tried your best to help me find the way out. THANKZ MOM. Thankz that you always listen to me, thankz that you let me "bully" you, if i was to list out the things to thank you, i bet a whole sea cant contain it. In this very special day, Ijust want to thank you. Mom i promise you i will try my best to excel in my studies and i will be a good doctor to make you proud. MOM I WILL!!! You can have my word...Tell you a secret ya, do you still remember the "ang pau" you gave me during Mighty Man2, it was still in my wallet, i might change wallet but i will always keep the precious letter you gave me..hehe... Mom, i am sorry i cant be your side to take care of you, i cant make you proud, i always make you angry, but mom from today i will love you and love you and love you more.... At last i just wanna tell you, I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!"

God thankz for giving me a mom, bless her and give her peace and healthy body. Always guide her ya, i give her to you LORD, take care of her, Amen

From your son, tsaisheng, 2009


Here' she and her beloved hubby...



Sealed with my kiss..hehe.....

See you mom, God bless, miss you ya....Muackz

She, who is currently in HEAVEN....

This morning while i was sleeping, i received 2 messages, wan me to pray for a friend of mine. She was told knocked by lorry and was on the way to hospital. When the time i received the first one, i went back and sleep. Coz my mind was blur, but when i received the second one, i knew the serious of it. I woke up, i prayed and prayed....In that moment i really think everything will be ok, God will save her.. I went to Chiazhen's room to call back Malaysia, and none fo them know what was the situation. I then went back and study histo, while having my break i took out the guitar and sang "YOU ARE MY STRENGTH" , i really believed that God will saved her. Dunno how long i prayed then i received a text massage from Chiazhen it was written: Charissa cant be saved...." My first feeling was, OH MY GOODNESS!! How could this happen? Why ? I asked God so many times. I jz chatted with her few days ago, she asked me about her studies and everything. I advised her and i promised her i will meet her when i back to Malaysia, but now.... MY feeling was complicated , i couldnt accept it, but in other way i knew God has his own will for this to happen. I know, this is His plan, but why God ? Not that i don't trust in you nor have no faith in you, but i really cant accept it... But i still acknowledge you, i know you wan it to happen for reasons, but i dunno what is the reason i will still trust you, my Lord

To Charissa:
Hey, i think you are now in heaven. How's the place? Nice right? I am so reluctant the leaving of you. I am sad and sorrow. But i know you want me to be happy and you want me to continue m life and be good. I am really sorry....I really wanna meet you, when the time i am back, i really really have loads things wanna share with you...Really really....I am sorry i cant keep my promise to meet you, i am sorry i din really give you advice when you need me. I wanna apologize if i said anything wrong to you last time. I really miss you. Just now when i went out i saw the blue sky, i know that u will be always there looking down at me. So if i do any silly things you dont laugh at me ya, or i do something bad dont tell God ya, hehe.....Is my leasure to have u as my friend, you will always in my heart, thankz for your advices and everything you put in my life to make me better. One thing i wanna tel you, our song is going to be recorded, i was thinking to ask ou to sing, but dont waorry your voice will still be in the album. Everyone will hear your voice and they also will know that the lyrics are come from you also. I hope you will hear the song and be proud of yourself, since we all are proud of you. I vy "qiong hei" hor, nag nag nag...But last thing we all will live well, we alla will continue to serve God, we will continue to love everyone arround us, will continue to appreciate everyone. You never leave us, but you appear to us in another way. We love you much, stay happy in heaven ya...and also must MISS us ar...

Our song....

合一的敬拜 词: 颜再盛/谢韵姿 曲:颜再盛

Verse One
当我挣开眼 看见大太阳
我知道 祢恩典围绕我
每当下起雨 心情不好时
祢的爱常滋润我

Verse Two
遇到挫折时 面对大患难
当情绪低落到不行时
但祢牵着我 一步一脚印
带领我越过死阴幽谷
Chorus
让我们合一的敬拜
卸下一切的重担
来到祢面前
纵然生命中充满起起落落
但祢始终不改变
Chorus
让我们同心的赞美
卸下一切的忧虑 全心仰望祢
虽然生命中遇到狂风暴雨
我仍然要跟随祢
用我一生敬拜祢
Bridge
我要张开口 举起手
高举祢的名
因祢的看顾带领和保守
我全然 交托于祢

:

When we were together....


2007 ONE WAY...


2007 Christmas


Together to Bahau


When we were crazy for the blonde


Together we did GREAT thing....


I were forced to take this pic...hehe


When we were the emcee for One Way... I was planning to have One Way 2, but cant have you this good partner


CNY 2009...Always in the heart of me....Goodbye my friend .....

The story of her life is not ended, but it inspires others....

CHARISSA YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART

A NEW FRESH day....

Today's devotion was great, you know as a medical student always we will meet loads of "maybe". But one thing i learned is only the words of his is something never change and you can count on it. You can never find any phrase that's absolutely correct and will never ever change till forever but HIS. To cut it short, what i learned from this morning was, "Are you awaiting what God is preparing for you? or You just want to go on your own way? " Well, God's has his purpose for you if you try to go on your own way then you gotta pay for your own consequences. As what we see in Genesis the fruit of the tree in the garden wasn't meant for Adam and Eve, but they chose to eat, and their consequences was they were set apart from the garden and lost all the good things they actually can have in the garden. "May your desire to have what God kept from you, not keeping you enjoying what he has given to you". So why not we just surrender everything to him ? As what one of my friends, if it's meant to be yours it will be yours. So referring to my few early posts, i always need his strength while i am waiting, i need his word to remind me that just surrender to him and he will guide be through out the whole journey. I greatly believe that the best is yet to come, and i just wanna surrender to him, so let him worry about the thing me....hehe...Yes, is really a great morning, that he reminded me the thing i nearly forget and corrected me back to the correct path that i shall actually on. So God bless you and God bless me, he is always here... HE IS !!!! Hallelujah...

Food....

Today, we have "food meeting" again, between Chiazhen, Bryan, Charis, and I. We are so blessed with food, though is not like the 5 stars hotel one, but it came out from us wei.... Of course not very nice also have to say NICE what..hehe. I was in charge in the chicken part, Chiazhen in vegetable, while Charis in steam egg and rice....Here are some picz...


Someone is eating the rice, while others were busying...


At last he helped...


And also carrying the rice pot


"deng deng"....Here are the food. Whee.....nice wei..


Here are the people, anti clockwise Chiazhen in black, Bryan, then Charis, and finally me..Good to have them, i was so blessed with the food..

Went to Thai's airline to settle some ticket thing, and this is the gal we met there, my friend she is the prettiest Russian gal he have ever met in Russia, What do you think ?






Time to nap.....Ciao guyz...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!!

5th of March, is the birthday of the only superwoman in my heart's birthday..."deng deng"...My beloved mom's birthday. Too bad i am not in Malaysia to celebrate this very special day with her, i how i wish i can just pop up in front of her to give her a BIG HUG, and BIG KISS..hehe. For me she is the greatest woman in the world, she has endless energy, endless love, endless endurance and of course endless nagging,hehe... In this special day i have some words for her:
1) Always healthy, dun sleep too late, dont overtire yourself, just order the other 2 children of yours to do the work.
2)Go shopping more la, buy more clothes, just use your husband's money.hehe or i give you his credit card,lolz.
3)May God bless you everyday, every moment, every hour, every minute, every seconds. May God always give you wisdom and intelligence, so that whatever decision u will be making is correct and please Him.
4) Dont always back to home so late, fire your BOSS la, find another one. I dont believe with your qualification, you cant any ten times better than the current. Who you are ? My MOM leh...
5) Hope the love between you and dad will last forever, everyday also a Valentine's day for you two, appreciate each other ya...

I wanna thank her for
1) Thankz for bringing me to this world, it's not easy, but i am so so so so greatful that i am your SON.
2)Always nagging me, coz' of your nagging, i am grown, you remind me in lot of things that i always forget. Me this absent minded people will always need your nagging..hehe
3)Thankz for your caring, i still can remember last time when i had asthma, u stayed awake for the whole night to take care of me. Whenever i am disappointed you will comfort me.
4)Thankz for always scolding me, without this i can never learn from my mistakes. Thankz for your forgiveness, I am sorry for everything that i did which hurt you.
5)Thankz for sending me to Russia, i promise i will work hard, and endure and be tough no matter how harsh is the situation. I will be a doctornot just to fufill my dream but to HONOR YOU, to make you PROUD. I will DO IT.

At last, i just wanna say I LOVE YOU MOM, i dont simply say i love you to other, coz it needs great responsible. I GAN TSAI SHENG willing to take up the responsible to take care of GOH LAY BENG, my dearesssssttttt mom , and shall always honor her and no matter what happens in the future, she will always be the one that I LOVE....


If have to say my first kiss, she is the one i gave ( lips to lips),hehe..But she looks very unwilling ya..lolz
From your dear son, tsaisheng

I can see everything....

I can see everything, but let it just goes on.....

I would very much hope....

I recently found out that to be patient could be the hardest homework, it especially applies on guy. Well, guys have that kind of thinking, they want to get something immediately when they want the thing, they just dont like to wait, and they only want the instant happiness and satisfaction. Well i have absolutely no offense to any guy, but this is jz my observation and opinion. Coz i am actually have this problem also, well it wouldn't be prominent but i cant deny i am quite impatient. But i cant make this as an excuse to let myself doing wrong thing and affect people, i must learn to be patient. I am trying though is superbly not easy but with HIM, i am sure i can do it. Always can see that guy wants the result while gal will enjoy the process. For me both are important, result is important so does the process, you cant want the result but dont want the process, coz result cant be led to without process. But you cant just enjoy the process and never come out with any result. For me i enjoy the process, but i must learn to be patient. This is one of my weaknesses, i want to be more patient, though u might not see this thing on me, but i cant deny it somehow affect me. Many times we afraid to wait, due to the uncertainty of the result. We afraid we will not the get the result we want and we wasted our time. Well i cant say that this is wrong but u are not deserve to get the thing since you cant even do the simplest thing-WAIT. Well, i can say that i am very uncertain with the thing i am waiting, but at least i am doing the simplest thing in order to have it, WAIT. If i cant even wait, i have no qualify to say i want to have the thing. I wanna prepare myself to receive the best, guys pray for me, for his strength shall be my strength shall be mine also....Jiayou!!! God bless you and me...

My life...

Recently am busy with one life, studies and life is just so hectic. I can say that i don't really have time to care other thing beside of this, BUT i wanna arrange my time so that i can also involve in other things, for HIS time is always enough. One day just gone, and i am quite tired, just back from a friend simple birthday meal, and i am so shameful that i found that i don't really know 2 of them, as they are my course mates. I gonna come back to the right track, i wanna to know them more, not merely simple social. I wanna treat everyone nicely, i wanna know everyone more. I don't wanna just focus on certain people, i wanna know of all of them. i can describe this with a phrase "waiting is part of my life, but enjoying is equally important". I might be emo, i might be jealous, i might be just may be anything, i will be tough and with His strength, i will overcome these all, and waiting for the best to come. Don't worry me, with HIM i can do it, i know he has prepared for me, and the thing i gonna do is be patient. In addition, equip myself to become more mature, more responsible, more diligent and better, so when the time come i will in my best condition. Waiting is a long process, it trains a person to become better, u have 2 things to do while waiting. 1st, just sit there and wait for the things to come, 2nd equip yourself so that when it comes you are ready to accept it. I know waiting is not a easy job, as i may give up half way, but i know with HIM and will not, and i believe that noone can stop HIM when he wants to give, and noone can recieve when he dosen't want to give. So just follow him, and his will , and my life will be joyful and blessed.....At last, i am waiting, but i am not just merely standing there, JIA YOU tsaisheng!!!!!! Prepare yourself for the best is yet to come....

Why?????

I dunno why i am so emo now, i am so moody now , i dun have strength, i dunno what happen to me?? God where are you? I NEED YOU!!!!!!!

HaPpy VaLeNTine's DaY

Choose the one you love, love the one u chose


Fuhh....Just finish busying, life is hectic here in Moscow. Busy preparing One life, bsy Valentine's day dedication and of course my studies. This is my first post since i back from Malaysia for winter break, so wanna tell you guyz, I AM ALIVE, STILL ALIVE. This has been a meaningful valentine's day for me, though i dind't have any targer or gf to celebrate with. I was in charge in our Malaysian Fellowship Valentine's day dedication. Which mean we were selling rose and tiramisu. So my job, haha, to go room by room to ask whether got people wanna dedicate or not. Well, i was happy when the time i sent them the things, i could see the happiness and surprise from their faces. They were on the cloud night, when they knew that actually got people dedicated them something. I just love the job to bring people hope and happiness though i didn'y recieve any, haha... We will tie a card on the tiramisu cup and rose which contain the message written by the sender. They are allowed to write on their names or just put anonymous, to those who wrote their names, MAN YOU ARE BRAVE ENOUGH. For hose pt anonymous, i just hope that one day the one u love will know that. Well, for me myself, i choose to use a phrase to encourage myself "Choose the one you love, and love the one you chose". When you think u don't like the person anymore try to think of this phrase, maybe you just need some time, Dont simply say "break up" to him or her. For those who like me havent got any, remember choose the oneyou love and once you chose just love her or him, and appreciate. Opps....2am, i need to go to sleep now, as i have to wake up 5:30am tommorow to pray, not the least here i wan to encourage one of my friend, have Faith in God, you might not understand loads of things now, but He has his own will, and if He promise he will give, what we can do is pray and have FAITH in him ya. I will always be with you, and support you all the way. At last HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!! C ya....

I AM GOING BACK......

Yesterday i went to Kl to meet friends, supposed to meet Caryn also, but she suddenly said she was sick, then ended up watching Inkheart, ot bad though the movie. After a long time i finally met Jun Hon and also lixin. I long time never see her already, she rushed back from her part time work. Thank you ya, then went to eat Japenese food, the food was ok ok, but quite cheap. Then went to meet my National Service friends, Yawlong, Waiyin, and Shili. I showed them some magics with my stupid and poor skills, haha...Thanks for your applauses ya, and also your time to come out to meet up. Will definitely miss them loads. After that, Lixin drove us to Bandar Tasik Selatan's KTM station, she drove UNSER, man!!!! A gal only 18 year-old, some more is in Kl, not bad ya. Before geeting down the car she suddenly handed me something, it was my belated birthday and Christmas presents. OH, SO SO SO SWEET....She kept from last year till now. Let me describe a bit, it is a box with a dairy( she wrote after i left Malaysia, is a dairy that she transformed her feeling of missing me into words), a notebook and also a box of chocolate. That was so so sweet, i didn't expect this. THANK YOU YA.......Then i stayed at Junhon's MMU hostel, without the knowing of the guard, geng leh, hehe.... This morning woke up at 10:30 then rushed out, i thought i could'nt catch the bus at 12pm which i have booked the bus ticket before hand, coz when i reached Pudu bus station it was 12:10pm, but THANK GOD, they delay till 12:30pm and i even able to get into the bus earlier. God really listens to my prayer, he always. This is my short and simple Kl trip, well atleast i met some friends which i have not seen for long time before i leave, just hope can see them as soon as possible.....


Here are my lovely presents.....THANKZ LOADS ya Lixin, i appreciate them very very much...

I suddenly have a feeling that i don't want to go back to Moscow..... :-(