Complicated way ,simple me

2010-07-04T02:42:00.004+08:00

I dun like the time when i am alone in the night, and i wanna talk to someone....Why i cant learn to share with You alone?
I dun like the time when my mind urge me to find a partner or out of sudden i think of someone and i will lose my mind....Why cant i learn to love You and wait for You?
I dun like the time when i am late....Why cant I be punctual as i have set this concept in my mind ?
I dun like the time when i try to give excuse and try to find the possible out of the impossibility?...why cant i lean on You?
I dun like the time when i fail to discipline myself, and make my body control me?...Why cant i let You discipline?
I dun like the time when the timing is wrong, why when the chances come and i am in wrong timing and they went off...Why cant I tune my timing to Your timing?
I dun like the time when my mind is so "good" in linking and predicting the result, that i dun know the response i give is out of my heart or what i actually plan to make the situation better?....why cant I just dont think ?
I dun like the feeling of dislike, why cant i make every situation as an opportunity to learn something?

I am really working hard, but why i need to be connected again? I planned to let go, but i have the responsibility there, i dont know how to face it, i really really scare once i give in i cant make myself out of it and i will do something hurting...Am i a coward who always think of escaping instead of facing it and conquer it? I dont know, i pray to You to help me, guide me...I dont wanna hurt people, i am tired of drawing myself out once i am in, i am tired of thinking something out of nothing like a mad people, i am tired of facing myself who act like a coward. Why again and again these things defeat me down?
Why again and again, my mind change so fast?
Why again and again i screw up the situation?
Why again and again i am weak ?
Why again and again i try and i fail, and i try and i fail?
Why again and again i say "I will not" and i follow my heart and I go?
Why again and again when i make my mind clear, and it will not last long?
Maybe what i can do best and for the best, i dont mean it is best but it is best out of my ability, is to rest and readjust myself in You.

I believe i dont know what is "in a relationship", what is "boy girl love about", i wanna quit from them for a moment,i leave it to You...Dont ask me whether i have gf onot, what i could tell you is i used my way ,i tried but i dont have.. I believe that there are more precious things in my life for me to treasure and love. You might say i am a loser and only say so coz i fail to be in a relationship, whatsoever i dont care.....At times it really drives me crazy!!!! I have enough of it.
I still believe true love will come, but seriously i dont know when , who, and is really enough for me think who is, who is not, Is Your business man, help me handle..I am not try to be irresponsible, but if could you teach me and let me know, dont leave me alone thinking, guessing like a mad people. Please!!! Thz! Nitez.

A piece of my thought on that night....

2010-07-01T22:27:00.001+08:00

Maybe the way to avoid disappointment is to avoid meeting appointment, stop to give hope to yourself...Kinda coward...

2010-06-30T21:10:00.001+08:00

突然想起, .三毛说:
某些人的爱情，只是一种“当时的情绪”。
如果对方错将这份情绪当做长远的爱情，是本身的幼稚。

2010-06-21T00:39:00.002+08:00

短暂的快乐让人回味无穷, 永恒的快乐让人不再贫穷

2010-06-18T04:36:00.001+08:00

France lost....Disappointing indeed!!!

2010-06-17T02:43:00.002+08:00

突然好想你-五月天很好听.....

2010-06-16T03:34:00.001+08:00

每天都有很感动人心的事,睁大眼睛看看,你会发现的.....美好的星期二.

2010-06-13T14:19:00.003+08:00

看着空荡荡的走廊, 回想起三不五时,的喧哗声
看着对面的那道门, 心里不时笑了一下,　总是在推开的那一刻撞到了妳，而妳却微微笑说:＂不要紧．＂
回头看着那零乱的房间，以前每晚十点都会被一群可爱的弟兄姐妹＂入侵＂．
我怀念：
那烘烤的香味,　那一叠叠等着被洗白的碗筷,　
那熟悉的"　啊宏,　臭人,　屁股,　去死啦，　傻佬．．．．
每逢星期一与五奔跑到厨房的过程
习惯星期六的唠叨
深夜和家振找食物吃,泡茶喝,　还有还有＂偷吃"洋芋片"．．．．
考试前紧张的心情
煮罗汉果的时候，　准备保温瓶，暖暖包时的心情
教琴的时候，聊天的时候
ＳＨＡＲＯＮ，　大姐式但又非常小孩子的脾气
＂可以不要将子吗？　可怜一下你的朋友．．sob sob....."
所有的生日惊喜，在门外紧张等候的感觉，然后看到他们紧张又兴奋又尴尬的表情，真的好怀念
还有还有好多好多

但看来时间是残酷的,　不能一直待在过去，是时候向前了,　结束并不是失去，而是拥有机会拥抱更多.．．．只想说一句，　＂我很珍惜，我很用心,我很感恩．．．．．．　

再见第二年,欢迎第三年咯．．．

2010-06-01T03:29:00.001+08:00

瑞芳煤礦有個礦工挖掘煤礦時，不慎觸及未爆彈而當場被炸死，他的家人只得到一筆微薄的撫恤金。他的妻子在承受喪夫之痛的同時，還要面臨經濟壓力。她無一技之長，不知道要如何謀生，正當憂愁之際，工頭來看她，並建議她到礦場販賣早點以維持生計，於是她做了一些餛飩，一大清早就到礦場去賣。

　　開張的第一天，來了十二位客人。隨著時間的推移，熱騰騰的餛飩吸引了更多顧客，生意好時，大約有二、三十人，生意清淡時，即使雨天或寒冬也不少於十二人。

　　時間一久，礦工的妻子們都發現丈夫每天早上工作以前，都要吃一碗餛飩。她們對此百思不得其解，於是想一探究竟，甚至跟蹤質問丈夫，但都得不到答案。有的妻子還自己做早餐給丈夫吃，結果丈夫還是去吃一碗餛飩。

　　在一次的意外裡，工頭也被炸成重傷，彌留之際對妻子說:「我死了以後，你們一定要接替我，每天去吃一碗餛飩，這是我們同組夥伴的約定。朋友死了，留下孤苦無依的妻兒，除了我們，還有誰能幫助那對可憐的母子呢?」

　　從此以後，餛飩攤多了一位女性的身影，在來去匆匆的人群當中，唯一不變的是不多不少的十二個人。

　　時光飛逝，礦工的兒子已長大成人，而礦工的妻子也兩鬢斑白，然而，這位飽經苦難的母親，依然用真誠的微笑來面對每一位顧客。

　　前來光顧餛飩攤的人，儘管年輕的替代老的，女的替代男的，但從未少於十二人。經過十幾年的歲月滄桑，十二顆愛心依然閃閃發亮。

　　有一種承諾可以直到永遠，那就是用愛心塑造的承諾，穿越塵世間最昂貴的時光。

　　十二個共同的秘密，其實只有一個祕密，那就是永恆的愛。

　　一個人的早餐只是一個蛋，兩個人的早餐就是一頓愛，

　　一個人的擁抱只能抱住風，兩個人的擁抱真實得發痛，

　　一個人的快樂多麼單薄，兩個人的快樂滿出了你我，一個人的痛苦苦得沒有盡頭，兩個人的痛苦至少多個人說說。

2010-05-25T15:18:00.004+08:00

去年我失去了妳,那么的突然, 我问上帝祢在哪里?
今年, 我接到消息, 我祈祷,希望她能好起来, 但她还是走了, 去了那远远的地方
当我还在自己看起来那么渺小的问题中不停的旋转, 生命却又在一次从我身边静静流走了,
去年我好想跟她分享当下的心情,
今年我只想悄悄的和祢分享, 有好多疑问想问祢, 好想要祢重复拿撒路的奇迹, 但我心知祢有自己的计划.
听着" 我知谁掌管明天", 我心也随着旋律渐渐平服了.

希望一切将会顺利, 原祢的平安和大家同在......也和我同在.

谢谢您扬老师,谢谢您的教导,谢谢你的鼓励. 您永远都会在我心里.

2010-05-25T05:16:00.002+08:00

有点累了，有点疲倦了。
每每即将结束前，就会有着样的感觉，
经历了那么多，错过了那么多，何时才会碰上呢？或许不会吧！或许猫永远不会喜欢吃萝卜吧！也或许猫永远都喜欢吃鱼。
误会了那么多，冲突或许也不必十只手指头少，但那个夜晚，我搭出了那勇敢的一步，你的真心我好像看到了，我的城墙也被溶化了，心比心好像也不是那么遥远了。
每每结束前才看清什么才是值得珍惜的，错过并不意味着没了，而是懂得在未来拥有更多。
有点亮了，有点曙光了。。。。。。。

2010-05-21T04:40:00.002+08:00

I hope to sit under a tree reading books, listening to some classical musics, enjoying the breeze. Close my eyes, i hope to get a break from all the books, colloqs, and jz lie down and feel it!!!! Let You God to guide me, sometimes things cant rush, it might seems in this way but it might be another next minute. What you have to do is not think how it will come, or how you wanna make it come, but wait God to make it comes in His way. Is not easy, but learning!!! Maybe i should let go the sand in my hand, then only Him can feel it with rainbows . But is not easy again. Sometimes i dont like my mind that it always rush, i hope to have some surprises that would be out of what i can think of, is kinda hard also. haha...sometimes i reli feel like to flow with my feel to do whatever thing i want, yet again i cant't. Methinks, a sleep is what i need now. Dont rush Gan Tsai Sheng, let it flows...

2010-05-19T17:43:00.002+08:00

心情真的有点闷,连午餐都只想一个人吃.
真的觉得自己有点懦弱.
是眼红,还是意味着自己的能力很有限.
每每想前进时,又被它停下来了,
好象没办法打赢它.

給我一点力量前进吧!! 亲爱的上帝.

好多话,好多心情很想跟妳分享, 能把妳的心借我一下下吗? 让我有个肩膀靠一下, 休息一会儿.

给祢和妳....

2010-05-17T05:28:00.000+08:00

我说了,你听到了吗?

2010-05-15T03:45:00.002+08:00

Thought today i could play soccer. who knows, they were playing. Indeed i was vy vy vy pissed off that time. Thz for Ronald, he was enduring me and keep saying " never mind". Haha...Maybe i need to control my emotion bit then. But great job to our English faculty Malaysia team, that you all won over the Russian one with 4-1 , Good Job!!! Keep it up!! Then was walking home alone, the feeling was good. Have some many things wanna share, have an ear for me ? Guess nope. Thz God for the day!

2010-05-14T04:24:00.001+08:00

Jiayou pls... God bless!!!

Something i accidentally saw

2010-05-05T03:54:00.002+08:00

快樂的權利

你很喜歡他，所以你一直以為，如果有一天，
他也能像你如此喜歡他一樣地喜歡你，
你就會變成世界上最快樂的人。
是的，他確實是個很值得愛慕的人，
但為什麼你要等他也來愛慕你了，你才要開始快樂呢？
這樣不是減少了讓自己快樂的時間嗎？
不是把快樂放逐到一個不確定的未來去了嗎
更重要的是，不是把自己寶貴的快樂的權利交到別人手上了嗎？
親愛的，他雖然很優秀，但還沒有優秀到有權利決定你快不快樂。
就算是真正的國王，也無能頒發子民的快樂。
快樂的奧義在於，你要掌握自己快樂的權利，而不是等待別人的賜予。
在心靈的國土上，你就是自己唯一的國王。

寬大

這是一個甫自越戰歸來的士兵的故事。

他從舊金山打電話給他的父母親告訴他們：

「爸媽，我回來了，可是我有個不情之請。

我想帶一個朋友同我一起回家。」

「當然好啊！」他們回答「我們會很高興見到他的。」

不過，兒子又繼續說下去：「可是有件事我想先告訴你們，

他在越戰裡受了重傷“失去一條胳臂和一隻腳”。

他現在走投無路，我想請他回來和我們一起住。」

「兒子，我很遺撼，不過或許我們可以幫他找個安身之處。」

「不要，爸媽，我要他和我們住在一起！」

父親又接著說「兒子，你不知道自己在說些什麼。

像他這樣的人會對我們的生活造成很大的負擔。

我們還有自己的生活要過，

不能就讓他這樣破壞了。我建議你先回家然後忘了他，

他會找到自己的一片天空的。」

就在此時兒子掛上了電話，他的父母再也沒有他的消息了。

幾天後，這對父母接到了來自舊金山警局的電話，

告訴他們親愛的兒子已經墜樓身亡了。警方相信這只是單純的自殺案件。

於是他們傷心欲絕地飛往舊金山，

並在警方帶領之下到停屍間去辨認兒子的遺體。

那的確是他們的兒子沒錯，但驚訝的是兒子居然

“只有一條胳臂和一條腿”。

每個人一生中都要信兩種教

昨天我和一個朋友聊到一句話，我覺得很有意義，
每個人一生中都要信兩種教，
妳知道是什麼教嗎....? 當然不是睡覺.....^.^
是不計較與不比較......
人活著都會有許多的慾望，慾望多了，漸漸會慾求不滿，
到最後就演變成為了滿足自己的慾望而去傷害別人...
如果我們凡事不與人計較，便不會有口角，也不會勾心鬥角，
如果我們凡事不與人比較，便不會有慾望，也不會欲求不滿，
因此我們做人要謙虛，要知足，更要惜福....
我們要把自己縮小，不斷的縮小自己，小到能將自己放入別人眼中，
因為眼裡是容不下一顆沙子的，倘若能將自己縮小到放入別人眼中，
讓別人都能接納妳，這樣才是真的會做人，
世界這麼大，每個人都有他的過人之處，
如果我們不懂得縮小自己，只是一味的覺得自己比別人厲害，
這樣永遠都不會成功，永遠都不會滿足，也永遠都不會快樂....
因為一山比一山高，所以不要去和人家比較，
這不是要妳因此不求上進喔.....，是要妳懂得謙虛....
而是要妳將心放大，
去包容每一個人，從家人，朋友，甚至陌生人.....
也許我解釋得不是很好，但我體會很深....
如果每個人都能有所體悟，都能放寬心，相信都會過得很快樂.....

體會

想要體會「一年」有多少價值，你可以去問一個失敗重修的學生。
想要體會「一月」有多少價值，你可以去問一個不幸早產的母親。
想要體會「一週」有多少價值，你可以去問一個定期週刊的編輯。
想要體會「一小時」有多少價值，你可以去問一對等待相聚的戀人。
想要體會「一分鐘」有多少價值，你可以去問一個錯過火車的旅人。
想要體會「一秒鐘」有多少價值，你可以去問一個死裡逃生的幸運兒。
想要體會「一毫秒」有多少價值，你可以去問一個錯失金牌的運動員。

Thank You.,..

2010-05-04T16:16:00.003+08:00

I was very disappointed with myself, i am a bit disappointed with you, but He cancel and delete all the disappointments and i am free now!!! Thank YOU!!

Love YOU

2010-03-17T23:56:00.003+08:00

It has been some times i dont update my blog.....haha..recently loads things happen, perhaps i am not that kind of ppl who reli like to share, thus i put all in my heart lo. Learned loads new things, get loads new and positive concepts. I wanna keep improve myself, grow till fat fat fat.......It is still in my heart, but i camouflage it lo, keep it deep in my heart. You know when you see a nice pic, you would like to have it so much, but you know it already has a vy vy good owner, you wouldnt wan to put a leg in it, not because you dont like it but you love it too much!! haha... I read a scripture this morning: God causes everything to work together for the good for those who love God and are caused according to His purpose. Romans 8:28 And one more which is really WOW...: No eyes has seen, no ear has heard, no brain has conceived. What God has prepared for those who love him. 1Cor 3:1. He speaks to me, for i know what i shall focus is to love him more and more and more, and He will guide me and be with me..Thz Lord, I LOVE YOU, for in the midst of doubting your faithfulness draw me back, at last let's ur will but not mine to be done ya!!

Sorry

2010-03-03T04:39:00.003+08:00

My way to care is to be naggy. The more i care the more i nag, coz i dunno wat i can do, hopefully through nagging i can some how help or remind them. When i hope you will und the important fact i will nag, coz i reli hope you will. I used to repeat loads things without realizing, coz i cant reli rmb what i have said and i din, but when i got the feeling and exicited about it, i will immediately share with you, so i am sorry if i have repeated loads times, for i know it will irritate you. I am sorry to be naggy, i know it dosent make people feel good, and very tiring to listen to me as i cant reli express myself well and use any good and suitable word. Is time to change perhaps, and i will try my vy best to change it, hopefully if next time i nag, you can kindly tell me" you are bit naggy ,i think" or if you are kind enough not to say out then i will of of course appreciate it very much..I am sorry to be so..In fact i hope someone can nag me or i dont mind coz i know you are caring me, somehow Mom i miss you!!!!

I thought

2010-02-19T05:35:00.002+08:00

I never thought you will but you did. Anyway, it passed and is ok ya..

I'm happy, even joyful....

2010-02-18T04:04:00.002+08:00

I called all my frenz today. I called Yeekim, Yewhui, laychin, Weichun, and shiya. Good to heard their voices. Then i made a call to Junfang, suisinn, peiying, bingzhi, duck, yong jin. Then i called Junhon, tzeloo, Benson, yuanshenq, Uncle Barry, Clement. Next, Lixin, but too bad she was watching movie. Then i called Anna, and we had a long chat after 4 years. I am glad all of them are fine and healthy, i glad to hear their happily voice, i am glad they are doing fine in Malaysia, having fun and meeting all their beloved and family. I was reli glad to hear from them, indeed, u cant und the feelings, till you taste it. And indeed today is special for me...as i learned something and thank you very much, for ur great forgiveness and understanding. I will promise what i promised you!!!

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T07:37:00.002+08:00

Just finished our Kuzhmin reunion dinner, was reali fun. But tired now..haha. Just wanna say Happy Chinese New year to everyone, mom, dad, mei and boy. Miss you all very very much!! To all my friends, reli loads till i cant name them all here, just wanna say i miss you very much, reli reli hope to be with you all. Hope you all will also blessed and enjoy the new year. Of course to all my friends in Moscow, though cant back to home, but i am sure friends are all around to cheer you up, at least i will, if you let me know you are la....haha . Of course, Happy Valentine's day to all my friends who are in relationship, to my roommate especially. For me this year's theme will be " Dont live my feel, but commitment. With Him." So appreciate the one you have now, hold her hand or his as you can, it might be the best gift you can give to her. As for me, hope a you will always be happy and joyful live with Him, and experience Him everyday. Jiayou in everything, and be tough!! Nitez lo, everyone, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 新年快乐.....

Jiayou!!!!

2010-01-21T23:57:00.003+08:00

Sitting in front of the laptop , to be frank i reali not in the mood at all...Feel like, dunno la!!!! Is reali hard, is a faith testing period. Is a period that i need to go on, continue to trust in HIM. I reli dunno wat to say, hope to have a you to give me a shoulder. I'm tired, but guide me Lord, let me to live in righteousness and your will...Thz Lord.

A short update....."Finally!!!"

2009-11-28T21:29:00.004+08:00

Hallo, it has been a long time i never blog. No time, haha...Which i always tell my friends and mom. haha...The line here seriously is not very well, and some more i seldom on my laptop so hardly for me to go online and blog as well. I am currently staying Kushminz, which a bundle of old friends and course some new one. Enjoy my life here, though need to suffer the traffic jams everyday. But thz God he always with me and sending all my friends with me.

Second year, i would say so far is good and challenging. With all the new subjects physiology and bio chem. Not too difficult for me though coz i learned them in form 6. But yet need to study harder to strike for the best. Jiayou!!!!

The uncertainty ended, which now in a resting potential mood. Waiting for the next action potential. But seem like need to hold it while waiting Him to influx me the ions i need which will last till forever. Waiting is great meant for shifting the lukewarm and for the hunger one. Though will have thousands of stimulations to try trigger it, to see whether it will generate any action potential or not, but i wanna it last long and never go to repolarisation . and Your approval ya. In the resting potential mood always unstable thinking of the next excited mood to come, so give me strength ya and Hold the tension with me together ya, so the best will last!!! ( You might not know what i mean, but i jz wanna vent off) hehe....

Walking closer to God, this year. Really love Him more and more. And hunger for his words more and more. Last time i din und why ppl say they will feel uncomfortable if they dun read His words on that day, but now i know why, coz i have the feeling also. Thank you Lord. I can hardly express all of them here, but through facebook you can see it.hee.....

Lastly, I only have a thing to say: " God is good all the time, all the time God is good" Cant feel my words, ask and you will experience him!!! Jiayou everyone in studies, if you think you are alone here there's a guy who also working hard and going through all difficulties like you together. He not using all his own strength only but the greatest one above him together they go on.. bye lo..See next time ya( which i dunno when also, hehe.) But will definitely be coming back .....God bless.

Random post

2009-08-22T02:49:00.003+08:00

Finally the hols come to the end. I am flying soon, so going to miss everything in Malaysia. I think i dont really have a fruitful hols. hehe... Everyday slpt till very late, some more no motivation to write blog. But But But, there're still things that were awesome during the hols. First was the Mission to Bandung. Well, i could say it is not really a vy vy impact mission, but i did learn things. Secondly, the FODC, i jz got back from there. It was cool and great. Meeting people, blessed by the sermons and enjoyed time there with everyone. I think the best for you to find out is to ask me, coz currently i really lazy to blog. hehe, sorry ya. Come and ask me, and i will tell you more than what you wanna know, hahahaha..... But currently there're 2 things in my heart which i wanna share. First "when you think of yourself, think of others" , second one is " No vision, perish then." Mission make my eyes become bigger, my thoughts become wider. FODC makes me see the vision and work hard for it. At here i will say, and i dare to say my 2nd ear will be wonderful. A year with vision and a year which the best things will happen. When i say so i dosent mean no problems, troubles or what. But i will be an awesome year which i will experience new things and learn more things. I think i am excited towards 2nd year, come on man, i cant wait lo..hahaha

A haPPy FAMILY day...YEah!!

2009-07-13T01:36:00.005+08:00

Today was a special day:

It was the first time after a year, again i led songs in Sunday School. Goodness, it's not easy. I found that is kinda hard for me to communicate with them. You know, i gotta talk like a child, sing like a child and act a bit cute, hehe..But don't worry i will be better next week. I like Sunday School, from the children i saw the purest heart to worship God, you all are so so cute..
After church service, i went and tell Pastor whether could i be the interpreter for next service or not, it would be a great challenge, must work hard ya..
Then we went to Melaka, Yeahh!!! My mom Asked me twice:"What you wanna buy that make u wanna go to Mlk? " I could'nt think of anything, coz i really have too much. So we walked here and there, and finally went for a movie watching, -TRANSFORMERS 2. But before that we went to play arcade. Haha...It was along time again since the last time i played with my dad. Haha.. We had something kinda table soccer( i dunno how to name it), it was super fun and also car racing. I enjoyed the moment so much....hahahaha. Next time play again ya. Then went to watch movie, was late coz waiting for roti bakar my dad ordered when we had a break in a restaurant.
The movie was nice!! Full with actions, the transforming of the Autobots, and the joining of new members. There're 2 parts in the movie, that i love most: First, when Optimus Prime sacrifice himself to save Sam, and when he fell down and almost die, he kept calling Sam to leave him and run. Second, when Sam was "dead", and his gal fren was so sad and kept saying:" I Love You". As for those who watched, neither of them wanna be the first to say it out. That was a really touching part, Dont care who will say first but say when you have chance, to your parents , to your friends also.
Then went to eat "wan tan mee", on the way back whenever i saw cars on the road, i was thinking the way they look if they could transform.lolz. Crazy me...

Well, today is a SPECIAL day, a day which is normal but yet full with laughters and grace of God. Sometimes you don't need a big day or special event to feel it, but just slow down and everyday can be a day full with thanksgiving, a day full with LOVE. OH, one more thing, i had my first and second durians today, the smell still in my mouth, yerr... Give face to you dad, i still dun really like durian...haha..Anyway, Thanks God for everything, I LOVE you all...Nitez.

My Family..hehe.

Opening a fruit stall soon...

2009-07-05T23:45:00.006+08:00

Today, went to Muar, brought super loads fruits back, i told my parents, we can literally open a fruit stall and sell all the fruits,haha.... Thankz all the relatives for giving us so many fruits, thankz ya..Anyone can come my house and have some fruits....Hope you all enjoy the fruit season ya...

FRUIIIIITTTTTSSSSSSSS....................

the rambutan.

and its frenz. Dunno what name..hehe

Finally.......

The king of the fruits, DURIAN!!!!!

p/s, i dun eat durians, so no difference though....

I found that....hehe

2009-07-03T01:29:00.006+08:00

I found that i am a bit uncle...Die lor.. I finished a drama series today,haha, finally finish ady. I have been watching for, i think 2 months, no time what..It is a nice movie, about family, and love. Last time i used to think " having a happy family, a husband who loves me" is a dream only for those little innocent gals...But i found that it is also one of my dreams,haha..("blushing") Today i passed through a photo shop, i saw few family pictures. The hush band holding his wife's hand, their children are so cute and it looks so so warm..How sweet it is!! haha..I hope i can be like that also. I dunno how to say, but i jz feel so warm when i see couple loving each other ,caring each other. Does it mean i have the feeling to get into a relationship har? Dunno, but i just love to see this kind of warm warm picture, haha..I would hope i have someone i love to hold my hand while i am down and happy. I jz hope to have a hug from her, and a firm hold of hand. Seem like this is the first time i am so " yok ma" (Cantonese). Well i just want to be a bit frank toward myself and what i feel. But it doesnt sound like i am advertise myself so i can get attractions from gals, doest it? better not..wakkakaka..Well, actually i am still young la, not even 21 wei, studying would be my main focus point, Doctor will be my aim. But sometime i will still think of it, and i do need this space for me to release it,lolz. But i believe in His time, is kinda hard i tell you. Especially when God says WAIT!!! haha... You see Abraham waited for seventy something years for a son, Israelites waited for 400 years to get out of Egypt, the journey is not an easy way. Sometimes u will fall, sometimes you feel like give up, but He promised those who keep in faith will be rewarded. I thankz God i still have family and frenz. But if God give me a chance to speak out to Him my wish i would say i want: A very very happy and warm family, i would like to have 2 children. I wanna let them learn musical instruments and also wanna let them learn martial arts which i din get to learn. I wanna educate them to the best i can. Most important teach them the words of God, bring them to Sunday school.....Too much man, too much things to do...Then i will also love my wife very very much,buy lodsa nice nice clothes, hug her when i can, kiss her when i find the chance, and together holding each other hands we walk ups and downs in life. And if i could , i hope she dosent have to work and have me to feed her till become fei po..hahaha....Well, i know, know what u all wan to say, think too much ady la..Still very far. But I tell you man, these are somehow a motivation for you to do better in your studies, lolz. For all my friends who having a boy friend or gal friend beside you, treasure them ar, give them a hug when you find a chance to do so, a warm hug. Hold their hand when they need, it will sure mean loads to them.Spend some quality time though sometimes is busy. Dont break up easily, this is a commitment, dont say fall out of love, for only foolish live by feeling. Bless you all ya...It sound like i am giving my final words before i die,hahahaha. K la, i am sure i become more uncle ady la, yerr.....Is late lo, slp la UNCLE!!! Nitez, everyone.....zzzzZZzzz

The love birds at my home..haha...LOVE YOU!!!!

Finally here it comes my update....

2009-07-01T23:05:00.004+08:00

I am back to Malaysia for 2 weeks.....What am i doing? Sleep, eat, play, lepak here and there...Doing something i cant do in Moscow, sure have to relax la...haha. Have to treasure the time together with all my frenz, coz they all going to Uni soon. Sigh, after that i will be alone....But luckily i have some great frenz like Tv, computer, piano...haha. Actually my life now is extremely unhealthy, sleep very late, wake up very late. I think i have broken my own record waking up at 3pm..What to do? I have time what..hahahaa. I think this kind of life will end very soon as from July i must discipline up myself, but yet still want to enjoy life.

What i have done....

Everyday sleep, eat and play...Opps, and watch endless tv shows,hehe
Join weichun's plans, undergoing something secretly( smile evilly)
Went swimming, i think i would rather say play water, but i must reli learn swimming.
Join prayer meetings, every Sat morning.
Have my first trip to Ipoh, have meeting regarding mission, thankz for the hospitality of Saac( Thankz for accommodation), Thankz Marcus and your God mom( thankz for the car trip and food hunting), Charis( thankz for the dinner) and also everyone....I am sure i will be there one more time, dont miss me so much ya..hehe
Have satey with frenz, cant eat in Moscow leh...Must eat loads la..haha

What i am going to do....

Have a trip to Kl to meetJunhon, lixin, rachel, maybe caryn nad loads loads ppl....
Join vashni's plan
Join Mission trip to Bandung, Indonesia
Join FODC( fellowship of doctor conference)
Start study a bit lo....
Practice piano
Shopping
Helping my mom do household duties( Dont missund i am doing now also lor)
Get a time to fix my watch it would be better if can have a new one, hehe
Time to change a new Hp lor, Iphone 3Gs faster come Malaysia la..
Keeping in touch with all my Moscow frenz. Jasper i jz feel weird u are not around me doing something stupid..haha
There are still loads of things i wanna do......and not to forget watch Transfomers, haven't have my first cinema trip since i am back...

Time is good when back to home, mom, dad, sis, bro are all beside me..Miss them so much, gonna use the time to love them more and also bully. Listen a song with yewhui today in car, he likes it very much, i heard and the lyrics are nice...Here it comes ....

作詞：LARA 作曲：張傑

下雨天了怎麼辦我好想你
我不敢打給你我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音變得好熟悉
沈默的場景做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

Finally it comes....haha.

2009-05-25T00:20:00.004+08:00

Finally have my dinner, it costs 130 roubles( 1 Ringgit=8.885Roubles) . The NASI BRYANI!!!! hahaha...I am going to enjoy it. Thankz Ronald for ordering, Belle for sending and also Jasper for informing( not reli lor..hehe).. Guyz hope you will have a good meal also, but let's thankz God for all these. (praying)..... Dang dang, eat lor...bye. Tcare, God bless!!!

SoLitUde..

2009-05-23T17:32:00.003+08:00

23-5-2009

I went school alone today
I missed a station coz i overslept
I had my lunch alone
I came back alone
I sat in a bus alone, coz he seat next to me was wet, no one wanted to sit.
It was a rainy day, i din have umbrella, i gotta run in the rain.....
It was another experience to being alone, you can try
But still good if you have some one besides you.....
I know You are with me., thank you....

A blessing By John O'Donohue
from his book "To Bless the Space Between Us"
published by Doubleday 1st Edition

For Solitude

May you recognize in your life the presence,
power, and light of your soul.

May you realize that you are never alone,
that your soul in its brightness and belonging
connects you intimately with the rhythm of the
universe.

May you have respect for your individuality and
difference.

May you realize that the shape of your soul is
unique,
that you have a special destiny here,
that behind the facade of life
there is something beautiful and eternal happening.

May you learn to see your self
with the same delight,
pride, and expectation
with which God sees you in every moment.

Best things are yet to come...Jiayou!!!

To HER....

2009-05-11T01:13:00.006+08:00

Finally here's the post, i have left this blog for quite some time, people busy ma....BUT today i muz blog, for a special woman in my life...MY MOM.

Here's the letter for you..

"Hey, "lao niang" i miss the time i called u like this, people think i am rude, but this is the way we communicate, coz u wun mind..hehe..I miss you mom, i reli hope i can be back to your side, can eat the food you cook, can have your cares, and can have everything u prepare for me. I hope i can jz pop up in front of you and surprise you. Thz for bringing me to this world, it is not easy, thz for the day 14-12-1988. Thz for growing me up, i know it was not easy to take care of a child with asthma. I muz have brought you loads tears, and worries..If not you, i have have back to heaven. THANKZ MOM. I know u always hope i can be the top student and excel in my studies, but i sorry for my stupidity and slow reacting. I would never forget how you canned me, scolded me and all these were just because you love me too much. If not you i think i cant even studying here to become a doctor. What make me touched was every time when after canning me, you will prepare me "milo" and food, and i can know that how pain ur heart was when you canned me . I even saw you cried after canning me. Sorry mom... When i was in secondary school, you were so worried that i would have mingled with bad company, until my friends never want to invite me out, coz you will never say YES.( unless special case) But what i saw was , u grdually become lenient as i grow older. Then i understand you have your time. THANKZ mom, i am sorry i quarreled with you, i am sorry i shouted at you, i am sorry that i said i will never want to have a mom like you...MOM SORRY!!! I am glad you let me learn piano, i am glad you never listen to me when i said i wanna give up, but just tell me to continue, if not you i cant be what i am today. When i finished form 6 which my result was not good enough to enter Medical Course of local Uni, suprisingly you agreed to let me further my studies in Russia. You never complain anything, but tried your best to help me find the way out. THANKZ MOM. Thankz that you always listen to me, thankz that you let me "bully" you, if i was to list out the things to thank you, i bet a whole sea cant contain it. In this very special day, Ijust want to thank you. Mom i promise you i will try my best to excel in my studies and i will be a good doctor to make you proud. MOM I WILL!!! You can have my word...Tell you a secret ya, do you still remember the "ang pau" you gave me during Mighty Man2, it was still in my wallet, i might change wallet but i will always keep the precious letter you gave me..hehe... Mom, i am sorry i cant be your side to take care of you, i cant make you proud, i always make you angry, but mom from today i will love you and love you and love you more.... At last i just wanna tell you, I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!"

God thankz for giving me a mom, bless her and give her peace and healthy body. Always guide her ya, i give her to you LORD, take care of her, Amen

From your son, tsaisheng, 2009

Here' she and her beloved hubby...

Sealed with my kiss..hehe.....

See you mom, God bless, miss you ya....Muackz

She, who is currently in HEAVEN....

2009-04-10T19:37:00.020+08:00

This morning while i was sleeping, i received 2 messages, wan me to pray for a friend of mine. She was told knocked by lorry and was on the way to hospital. When the time i received the first one, i went back and sleep. Coz my mind was blur, but when i received the second one, i knew the serious of it. I woke up, i prayed and prayed....In that moment i really think everything will be ok, God will save her.. I went to Chiazhen's room to call back Malaysia, and none fo them know what was the situation. I then went back and study histo, while having my break i took out the guitar and sang "YOU ARE MY STRENGTH" , i really believed that God will saved her. Dunno how long i prayed then i received a text massage from Chiazhen it was written: Charissa cant be saved...." My first feeling was, OH MY GOODNESS!! How could this happen? Why ? I asked God so many times. I jz chatted with her few days ago, she asked me about her studies and everything. I advised her and i promised her i will meet her when i back to Malaysia, but now.... MY feeling was complicated , i couldnt accept it, but in other way i knew God has his own will for this to happen. I know, this is His plan, but why God ? Not that i don't trust in you nor have no faith in you, but i really cant accept it... But i still acknowledge you, i know you wan it to happen for reasons, but i dunno what is the reason i will still trust you, my Lord

To Charissa:
Hey, i think you are now in heaven. How's the place? Nice right? I am so reluctant the leaving of you. I am sad and sorrow. But i know you want me to be happy and you want me to continue m life and be good. I am really sorry....I really wanna meet you, when the time i am back, i really really have loads things wanna share with you...Really really....I am sorry i cant keep my promise to meet you, i am sorry i din really give you advice when you need me. I wanna apologize if i said anything wrong to you last time. I really miss you. Just now when i went out i saw the blue sky, i know that u will be always there looking down at me. So if i do any silly things you dont laugh at me ya, or i do something bad dont tell God ya, hehe.....Is my leasure to have u as my friend, you will always in my heart, thankz for your advices and everything you put in my life to make me better. One thing i wanna tel you, our song is going to be recorded, i was thinking to ask ou to sing, but dont waorry your voice will still be in the album. Everyone will hear your voice and they also will know that the lyrics are come from you also. I hope you will hear the song and be proud of yourself, since we all are proud of you. I vy "qiong hei" hor, nag nag nag...But last thing we all will live well, we alla will continue to serve God, we will continue to love everyone arround us, will continue to appreciate everyone. You never leave us, but you appear to us in another way. We love you much, stay happy in heaven ya...and also must MISS us ar...

Our song....

合一的敬拜词: 颜再盛/谢韵姿曲:颜再盛

Verse One
当我挣开眼看见大太阳
我知道祢恩典围绕我
每当下起雨心情不好时
祢的爱常滋润我

Verse Two
遇到挫折时面对大患难
当情绪低落到不行时
但祢牵着我一步一脚印
带领我越过死阴幽谷
Chorus
让我们合一的敬拜
卸下一切的重担
来到祢面前
纵然生命中充满起起落落
但祢始终不改变
Chorus
让我们同心的赞美
卸下一切的忧虑全心仰望祢
虽然生命中遇到狂风暴雨
我仍然要跟随祢
用我一生敬拜祢
Bridge
我要张开口举起手
高举祢的名
因祢的看顾带领和保守
我全然交托于祢

When we were together....

2007 ONE WAY...

2007 Christmas

Together to Bahau

When we were crazy for the blonde

Together we did GREAT thing....

I were forced to take this pic...hehe

When we were the emcee for One Way... I was planning to have One Way 2, but cant have you this good partner

CNY 2009...Always in the heart of me....Goodbye my friend .....

The story of her life is not ended, but it inspires others....

CHARISSA YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART

A NEW FRESH day....

2009-03-10T15:02:00.004+08:00

Today's devotion was great, you know as a medical student always we will meet loads of "maybe". But one thing i learned is only the words of his is something never change and you can count on it. You can never find any phrase that's absolutely correct and will never ever change till forever but HIS. To cut it short, what i learned from this morning was, "Are you awaiting what God is preparing for you? or You just want to go on your own way? " Well, God's has his purpose for you if you try to go on your own way then you gotta pay for your own consequences. As what we see in Genesis the fruit of the tree in the garden wasn't meant for Adam and Eve, but they chose to eat, and their consequences was they were set apart from the garden and lost all the good things they actually can have in the garden. "May your desire to have what God kept from you, not keeping you enjoying what he has given to you". So why not we just surrender everything to him ? As what one of my friends, if it's meant to be yours it will be yours. So referring to my few early posts, i always need his strength while i am waiting, i need his word to remind me that just surrender to him and he will guide be through out the whole journey. I greatly believe that the best is yet to come, and i just wanna surrender to him, so let him worry about the thing me....hehe...Yes, is really a great morning, that he reminded me the thing i nearly forget and corrected me back to the correct path that i shall actually on. So God bless you and God bless me, he is always here... HE IS !!!! Hallelujah...

Food....

2009-03-07T02:06:00.009+08:00

Today, we have "food meeting" again, between Chiazhen, Bryan, Charis, and I. We are so blessed with food, though is not like the 5 stars hotel one, but it came out from us wei.... Of course not very nice also have to say NICE what..hehe. I was in charge in the chicken part, Chiazhen in vegetable, while Charis in steam egg and rice....Here are some picz...

Someone is eating the rice, while others were busying...

At last he helped...

And also carrying the rice pot

"deng deng"....Here are the food. Whee.....nice wei..

Here are the people, anti clockwise Chiazhen in black, Bryan, then Charis, and finally me..Good to have them, i was so blessed with the food..

Went to Thai's airline to settle some ticket thing, and this is the gal we met there, my friend she is the prettiest Russian gal he have ever met in Russia, What do you think ?

Time to nap.....Ciao guyz...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!!

2009-03-05T21:22:00.006+08:00

5th of March, is the birthday of the only superwoman in my heart's birthday..."deng deng"...My beloved mom's birthday. Too bad i am not in Malaysia to celebrate this very special day with her, i how i wish i can just pop up in front of her to give her a BIG HUG, and BIG KISS..hehe. For me she is the greatest woman in the world, she has endless energy, endless love, endless endurance and of course endless nagging,hehe... In this special day i have some words for her:
1) Always healthy, dun sleep too late, dont overtire yourself, just order the other 2 children of yours to do the work.
2)Go shopping more la, buy more clothes, just use your husband's money.hehe or i give you his credit card,lolz.
3)May God bless you everyday, every moment, every hour, every minute, every seconds. May God always give you wisdom and intelligence, so that whatever decision u will be making is correct and please Him.
4) Dont always back to home so late, fire your BOSS la, find another one. I dont believe with your qualification, you cant any ten times better than the current. Who you are ? My MOM leh...
5) Hope the love between you and dad will last forever, everyday also a Valentine's day for you two, appreciate each other ya...

I wanna thank her for
1) Thankz for bringing me to this world, it's not easy, but i am so so so so greatful that i am your SON.
2)Always nagging me, coz' of your nagging, i am grown, you remind me in lot of things that i always forget. Me this absent minded people will always need your nagging..hehe
3)Thankz for your caring, i still can remember last time when i had asthma, u stayed awake for the whole night to take care of me. Whenever i am disappointed you will comfort me.
4)Thankz for always scolding me, without this i can never learn from my mistakes. Thankz for your forgiveness, I am sorry for everything that i did which hurt you.
5)Thankz for sending me to Russia, i promise i will work hard, and endure and be tough no matter how harsh is the situation. I will be a doctornot just to fufill my dream but to HONOR YOU, to make you PROUD. I will DO IT.

At last, i just wanna say I LOVE YOU MOM, i dont simply say i love you to other, coz it needs great responsible. I GAN TSAI SHENG willing to take up the responsible to take care of GOH LAY BENG, my dearesssssttttt mom , and shall always honor her and no matter what happens in the future, she will always be the one that I LOVE....

If have to say my first kiss, she is the one i gave ( lips to lips),hehe..But she looks very unwilling ya..lolz
From your dear son, tsaisheng

I can see everything....

2009-03-04T13:44:00.000+08:00

I can see everything, but let it just goes on.....

I would very much hope....

2009-02-20T16:18:00.003+08:00

I recently found out that to be patient could be the hardest homework, it especially applies on guy. Well, guys have that kind of thinking, they want to get something immediately when they want the thing, they just dont like to wait, and they only want the instant happiness and satisfaction. Well i have absolutely no offense to any guy, but this is jz my observation and opinion. Coz i am actually have this problem also, well it wouldn't be prominent but i cant deny i am quite impatient. But i cant make this as an excuse to let myself doing wrong thing and affect people, i must learn to be patient. I am trying though is superbly not easy but with HIM, i am sure i can do it. Always can see that guy wants the result while gal will enjoy the process. For me both are important, result is important so does the process, you cant want the result but dont want the process, coz result cant be led to without process. But you cant just enjoy the process and never come out with any result. For me i enjoy the process, but i must learn to be patient. This is one of my weaknesses, i want to be more patient, though u might not see this thing on me, but i cant deny it somehow affect me. Many times we afraid to wait, due to the uncertainty of the result. We afraid we will not the get the result we want and we wasted our time. Well i cant say that this is wrong but u are not deserve to get the thing since you cant even do the simplest thing-WAIT. Well, i can say that i am very uncertain with the thing i am waiting, but at least i am doing the simplest thing in order to have it, WAIT. If i cant even wait, i have no qualify to say i want to have the thing. I wanna prepare myself to receive the best, guys pray for me, for his strength shall be my strength shall be mine also....Jiayou!!! God bless you and me...

My life...

2009-02-18T02:48:00.002+08:00

Recently am busy with one life, studies and life is just so hectic. I can say that i don't really have time to care other thing beside of this, BUT i wanna arrange my time so that i can also involve in other things, for HIS time is always enough. One day just gone, and i am quite tired, just back from a friend simple birthday meal, and i am so shameful that i found that i don't really know 2 of them, as they are my course mates. I gonna come back to the right track, i wanna to know them more, not merely simple social. I wanna treat everyone nicely, i wanna know everyone more. I don't wanna just focus on certain people, i wanna know of all of them. i can describe this with a phrase "waiting is part of my life, but enjoying is equally important". I might be emo, i might be jealous, i might be just may be anything, i will be tough and with His strength, i will overcome these all, and waiting for the best to come. Don't worry me, with HIM i can do it, i know he has prepared for me, and the thing i gonna do is be patient. In addition, equip myself to become more mature, more responsible, more diligent and better, so when the time come i will in my best condition. Waiting is a long process, it trains a person to become better, u have 2 things to do while waiting. 1st, just sit there and wait for the things to come, 2nd equip yourself so that when it comes you are ready to accept it. I know waiting is not a easy job, as i may give up half way, but i know with HIM and will not, and i believe that noone can stop HIM when he wants to give, and noone can recieve when he dosen't want to give. So just follow him, and his will , and my life will be joyful and blessed.....At last, i am waiting, but i am not just merely standing there, JIA YOU tsaisheng!!!!!! Prepare yourself for the best is yet to come....

Why?????

2009-02-17T03:11:00.002+08:00

I dunno why i am so emo now, i am so moody now , i dun have strength, i dunno what happen to me?? God where are you? I NEED YOU!!!!!!!

HaPpy VaLeNTine's DaY

2009-02-15T06:44:00.002+08:00

Choose the one you love, love the one u chose

Fuhh....Just finish busying, life is hectic here in Moscow. Busy preparing One life, bsy Valentine's day dedication and of course my studies. This is my first post since i back from Malaysia for winter break, so wanna tell you guyz, I AM ALIVE, STILL ALIVE. This has been a meaningful valentine's day for me, though i dind't have any targer or gf to celebrate with. I was in charge in our Malaysian Fellowship Valentine's day dedication. Which mean we were selling rose and tiramisu. So my job, haha, to go room by room to ask whether got people wanna dedicate or not. Well, i was happy when the time i sent them the things, i could see the happiness and surprise from their faces. They were on the cloud night, when they knew that actually got people dedicated them something. I just love the job to bring people hope and happiness though i didn'y recieve any, haha... We will tie a card on the tiramisu cup and rose which contain the message written by the sender. They are allowed to write on their names or just put anonymous, to those who wrote their names, MAN YOU ARE BRAVE ENOUGH. For hose pt anonymous, i just hope that one day the one u love will know that. Well, for me myself, i choose to use a phrase to encourage myself "Choose the one you love, and love the one you chose". When you think u don't like the person anymore try to think of this phrase, maybe you just need some time, Dont simply say "break up" to him or her. For those who like me havent got any, remember choose the oneyou love and once you chose just love her or him, and appreciate. Opps....2am, i need to go to sleep now, as i have to wake up 5:30am tommorow to pray, not the least here i wan to encourage one of my friend, have Faith in God, you might not understand loads of things now, but He has his own will, and if He promise he will give, what we can do is pray and have FAITH in him ya. I will always be with you, and support you all the way. At last HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!! C ya....

I AM GOING BACK......

2009-02-06T01:22:00.004+08:00

Yesterday i went to Kl to meet friends, supposed to meet Caryn also, but she suddenly said she was sick, then ended up watching Inkheart, ot bad though the movie. After a long time i finally met Jun Hon and also lixin. I long time never see her already, she rushed back from her part time work. Thank you ya, then went to eat Japenese food, the food was ok ok, but quite cheap. Then went to meet my National Service friends, Yawlong, Waiyin, and Shili. I showed them some magics with my stupid and poor skills, haha...Thanks for your applauses ya, and also your time to come out to meet up. Will definitely miss them loads. After that, Lixin drove us to Bandar Tasik Selatan's KTM station, she drove UNSER, man!!!! A gal only 18 year-old, some more is in Kl, not bad ya. Before geeting down the car she suddenly handed me something, it was my belated birthday and Christmas presents. OH, SO SO SO SWEET....She kept from last year till now. Let me describe a bit, it is a box with a dairy( she wrote after i left Malaysia, is a dairy that she transformed her feeling of missing me into words), a notebook and also a box of chocolate. That was so so sweet, i didn't expect this. THANK YOU YA.......Then i stayed at Junhon's MMU hostel, without the knowing of the guard, geng leh, hehe.... This morning woke up at 10:30 then rushed out, i thought i could'nt catch the bus at 12pm which i have booked the bus ticket before hand, coz when i reached Pudu bus station it was 12:10pm, but THANK GOD, they delay till 12:30pm and i even able to get into the bus earlier. God really listens to my prayer, he always. This is my short and simple Kl trip, well atleast i met some friends which i have not seen for long time before i leave, just hope can see them as soon as possible.....

Here are my lovely presents.....THANKZ LOADS ya Lixin, i appreciate them very very much...

I suddenly have a feeling that i don't want to go back to Moscow..... :-(

Me...(Part 1)

2009-02-01T19:17:00.005+08:00

After reading a blog i suddenly feel like to write a bio data about myself, here we go

Gan Tsai Sheng, (thinking of naming myself Elijah,cool right? hehe)
20++ year-old
14-Dec-1988
Tampin, Negeri Sembilan
Born in Muar General Hospital
A type blood
Primary school: Chung Hua Tampin(1995-2000), Secondary: Tunku Besar SecondarySchool(2001-2005/2006-07), University: Moscow medical Academy
Parents and 2 siblings(1 bro-Vincent, 1 sis-Tracy)

I love to sleep very very very much, Seriously u can just call me PIG. I don't know why i just love to sleep, i don't count the longest sleep i had before this but i think it will be shocking, hehe...
My ambition is to be a doctor. Why? One answer- SAVE LIVES. Well, you cant deny that doctor has better income, which is also one of the reason i choose medicine, you need money to give your family a better life, aren't you? But for me lives come first and money maybe will be the last thing i consider. I hope to be cardiologist or maybe anaesthetist or just let me finish the course then only think, would be more practical. But i just love HEART!!!
I love my family, but u know as a guy, we just love to run here and there and don't like to be kept within bounds, maybe this reason make me look like i don't love my family. We are close to each other, but you know Asia Chinese, we just not good in expressing out love towards each other. But the thing we cant deny is the LOVE between us. I must really learn to hug them or kiss them, hehe...But i think what i can do is care them more and do well in my academic to make them proud, and always pray for them....
I love music very much, probably i grew up in church which i am surrounded with chaunts. My dream instrument is Cello, but sadly i cant really learn it, sigh....Favourite composer is Chopin, the tempo of the pieces is the main fact that i like him. As what an artist said Music joins the world, i love the story behind the Music.
I used to be a drama lover, due to the shortness of time, i can hardly watch drama again. I love to watch interview of those famous people especially the artists, i just love the story behind them, and always u can learn something from them. Well, i dun reject documentaries, like National Geographic, but don't know somehow i will fall asleep when watching, hehe.
I am a big eater, yes I AM.. I'm actually not really picky but the food must be nice. Best cook i have met so far is my MOM, and i think she will always be, hehe..But i cant really cook that is the thing i feel embarass, i must really learn from her. Seriously..
I am quite blur, quite talkative( maybe a lot), sometimes quite, etc. Cant really tell you waht kind a person i am, you must come to me and get know of me. hehe..
I hope that i can absorb whatever i learn so that i ll be benifited in the future, no point to get good result and learn only the way to do well in examination. Read any reading material, u can really gain loads knowledge. I'm not a big fan of books but i hope i will read at least 10 books per year excluding my text books.
My favourite sport is soccer. Basically i play every sports execpt volley ball. I have a gang of friends who are like me also, i enjoy playing sports with them. I still can remember last time we even "ponteng" to play soccer, we used to play soccer at late of night, normally around 11pm, which my mom cant really extend. hehe..
I love shopping but i cant really shop for a long time, if i wanna buy something i will find that shopping is ineteresting when i wanna buy something, or else i will rather sleep at home. But i don't mind to accompany friends to shop, and giving them some opinions on buying things.

TIME'S UP!!!!!! NEED TO STUDY LO......

I wanna.....

2009-01-29T20:53:00.006+08:00

SHOUT , find me an ear......The uncertainty and unknowing in my heart make me wanna SHOUT!!!!!!!!!

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-28T01:39:00.018+08:00

Yeah!!! Finally i can update my blog. My surprise plan was partly succeeded, managed to make some of my frenz shocked, hehe...For those who dont know what is the plan about, actually i didn't tell all my frenz that i am coming from Moscow, and i jz popped up in front of them to surprise them. Well, this might be the last Chinese New Year which i can celebrate with my family and frenz in Malaysia in this coming 6 years as my winter break will not meet the Chinese New Year. So i am so going to have FUN to MAX!!!!! Then we shall start from the eve of new year:

The Eve.....

Yeah!!!! Finally i can eat my mom cooks, i miss her cooks for 4 months. The important thing is we can have reunion dinner together, the food is the second thing but the most important thing is we could sit together and pray before we eat. Well, i gonna miss this very much, my wish is we can have dinner together from now till forever.

Food from the World BEST Cook.....Mrs Gan.

Chopsticks not fork and spoon, lolz..

I love this

The 1st day.....

My church has a tradition, which i also like it very much, that's we will have a thanksgiving service on the 1st day of Chinese New Year before we go to visit our relative. This is we were blessed with the sermon entitled "Be THANKFUL" . We always ask, demand and take things for granted, but what about be thankful??? One of the phrase that impacted me was " A thank you can bless the reciever and giver " Say THANK YOU to your parents , say THANK YOU to your friends, say THANK YOU to your spouse/ boy,gal friend , and say THANK YOU to the GOD!!!! Appreciate the one beside you, not regret when they are no more there. Besides that, i also met loadsa friends who i have not seen for "ages", and we were crazily taking pictures, this is also one of my church youth tradition,hehe....

The couple.....

The fantastic 5

The youth , is so hard to put everyone in a photo.....

Guyz rock!!!! Darren from Aus one of my far relative, look like Lee Hom isn't him ?

The 2nd day.....

Well today i had 拜年, it means visit relatives from house to house. Well, i think most of the youngsters today will not do. I can still remember when i was still a kid i used to have this with all my friends, coz' we can get angpau . I personally think that this is a good tradition though it is quite tiring, but at least we can get know of the relatives. Here i seriously wanna praise my mom, she insisted to have this tradition, woke us up early in the morning , and when we said "huh? don't go to this house la, tired leh." she insisted to go, though i can see she is tired also. The thing i respect her MOST is she tried her best to go to all my dad's side relatives. Well, i don't know about other people but as a wife she has done her best to honor my dad and the Ten Commanments " Honor your parents" MOM, I RESPECT YOU!!!!!! Later when back to home, my frenz phoned me said wanna come to my house, and so we have an instant gathering, and WE HAVE FUN!!!!!! Not the least they tried the Vodka i brought from Russia.....

Here are we....

Ready to drink

Yam seng......

and one DRUNK....haha...

Tommorow will be the third day , i will go visit friends' houses, gotta go and 9:30am and now is 3:30am and there are few friends gambling outside, haha...Going to see what they are playing......C ya....

......

2009-01-17T09:33:00.001+08:00

Is so so so good to have prayer meeting at 7 morning , he just makes my day fresh.....

2009...New year,New me-New you

2009-01-02T18:39:00.020+08:00

Hey, everyone, i'm back!!!! Happy new year , may God bless you abundantly and guide you in every step you going to take. Fuhh..Finally finished my Anatomy ,Gen chem ,Russian language ,Physics, Bio,and Latin sem1's colloq.Currently only left Bio-org chem 3rd colloq and final , then i am free.I found that December is an eventful and BUSIEST month i have ever had here.Firstly i have mountain of colloqs to take ,the worst was i had 5 colloqs in one week to be taken , and Anat was one of them .Now seriously when i think of it, i dunno how i pass that scary week.Then's my birthday, here i want thank to a special person who planned everything and even carried 2 cakes back from Ashan. SHE'S CHARIS KONG LENG EAN!!!!! Spasiba balshoi X100000!!!! Besides that i also wanna thank all my friends who gave me suprises and clelebrated my birthday with me , without u guys it wun be so Wonderful!!!!! After this was White Christmas Charity Ball , i attended the event as a waiter...WAITER!!!! vThe first thing came across my mind was, i was so regret the way i treated the waiters last time , simply asked them to take this and that , this time i shall die ,the people will treat me back as what i did last time. But suprisingly, that was not the point on that night. I learned loads thing as a waiter , e.g. how should u hold the plates , or how people can hold 2 plates in one hand at the same time. How to put all the food in the plates, how to decorae them . We always take things for granted , but i tell u start from this moment i will respect the waiters!!! Wow .that was really a great night!! After this was the 1ST CHRISTMAS PARTY IN PUSHKIN , an awesome party that we planed together and that were around 150 people that day.We together clebrated the birth of Christ and share the love He gave us among all the friends. That night everyone was so photogenic , we took "menoga" picz , was a fun and meaningful evening!! That's all for December , oh WAIT!!!!! Nearly forgot vision all night we had from 31st of Dec 2008 to 1st od Jan 2009 . That was also a superb night , i broke my record,beacuse i was AWAKE for 24hours!!!! hehe.....so Proud!!! That night we had games, food and not least but the most importnat thing PRAYERS. It is so good to start a year with prayers , seiroulsy is really "hang fu" to have God with us in our daily life. We made our resolutions for this new year , may God guide me and give me strength so that i can do whatever he wants me to do not what i wanna do. Oh,i am now like a old nanny , cant stop nagging, herea re some good picz , that say thousand words.....

All waiting to give me surprise...hehe

Happy Birthday!!!!

My cell group leader , mr handsome Marcus....lolz

Charis with her special hairstyle with me in White Christmas

A normal look during Puskin Christmas party.....Thz loads wei...

oh......

Gentlemen.SMART!!!!

Designed by Miss Charmine

Theme: Chritmas N YOU!!!

Here is she

Santa Claus is coming tonight...

The committee members...

Everyone was so HIGH...

Again , i'm in MOSCOW now!!!!!

A good day

2008-11-08T16:26:00.022+08:00

Today's temperature..

After 3 exams in a week , finally i have some time to sit down and relax ,enjoy myself .Here is getting colder , now we are invited to enter the winter of Russia , no more below 10C now is BELOW 0 celsius !!! COLD!!! I could see some snow flakes last Thursday , I think I will have my vy first winter very soon .Today is Saturday , a day that i will wake up whenever i want , a day i can put all my studies down , a day i have time to blog ,haha. My main purpose of this blog is to show u my room , as many people said the hostel in MMA is bad , not well equipped and bla bla bla......But i am blessed enough to get a newly renovated room , which all of my roommates enjoy staying here . Well , in Russia for MMA students we are unlucky to be informed that we dont have our permanent hostel room in our first 2 years , that means u might stay here for a week and move to another place just after today . But yet i am blessed that i got my permanent room in Puskin ,thanks God . There are several hostels in Moscow for MMA Malaysians , they are : Spartive , Yugo-zapadnaya, Puskin ,Karhov and Kushmin. Pushkin is known as the one of the bes place to Russian language in Russia , so this is a language center . We are allowed to stay here because we are learning Russian here , I have 3 hours Russian class every Tuesday for your information . So basically i will meet loads of foreigners here , Chinese , Vietnamese , Koreans , Japaneses ,Europeans and some Africans . So here are some pics of my room , have a look.....

My lovely room...

Another 3 seated room in my unit....

Fridge full of foods ,and beverages

No shoes rack , i think i would better get one asap....

Written by Jasper , SHOES ARE PROHIBITED!!!!

Rules and regulations , NO kettle ,NO rice cooker no high voltage electrical stuff in the room!!

Newly renovated toilet is way much nicer than the old one...hehe

The shelf..

Zoom in from the previous, the Books and batman's friends...

Place where i study...

Another view..

The BREAD of my days....

Maggie and Milo will be the best food when u have no time to prepare yourself a meal..lolz

Can you translate this for me ?
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.(Human Atlas Anatomy ) Got it ?

Is a shinny day , but outside is -2C....sardonic ?lolz

1411 , MY ROOM!!!!!!

That's all for today , next post i will talk about.....

The metro system of MOSCOW....See ya.....

tasisheng is now in MOSCOW

2008-10-05T03:00:00.017+08:00

Hey , i am now in Russia, i am not going to say that i am going to Russia,nor i am entering to a medical school ,but i am now here . I got a good life here ,no worry then . Temperature here is ok ,normally it is below 10C in the morning and it become warmer in the noon , but back to cold at night . Well , i have spent about 2 months here , from early autumn i am now invited to Russian prestigious WINTER ,coooold~~. I got a good answer from Alex when i asked him "How's your life here in Moscow? " Without a second of thinking he replied me " There's no life here !" .Well he is partialy correct , if u think that study everday without movies , sleep averagely 3-3.5 hours per day ,travel to school 2 hours earlier before the class , cook lunch,dinner yourself is something u annoying then ou have absolutely NO LIFE . But if u think u can join prayer meeting every night , go to church every Sunday ,at least can relax after Anatomy day , and having fun while cooking is something interesting and meaningful then u HAVE LIFE!!! Well , i shall say that medical student life is not easy , u really need to have determination and strenght from God .Without God u can really do nothing , i can tell u this is true , i have experienced this . I have about 7 subjects here to study : Anatomy ,bio-organic chem, General chem, physics and maths,Latin,Russian,and Biology. They are not really very hard but u need times to fathom all the knowledge .I quite enjoy my life here , i got bunch of good friends ,and now i somehow not used to watch movies and found that cooking is something quite interesting ,BUT NOT WASHING DISHES!!!! haha....Lazy me. Well that's all i wanna update , for my beloved friends,family members and brothers and sisters in Christ , i just wanna thank for ur caring and prayers , i miss and by all means i love you all ,MUACKZ!!!!!

I MISS U ALL.....

My luggage, so heavy

Having dinner together( So that no need to cook everything yourselves,haha..)

They are pro in cooking , i am only a beginner....Sigh.

Mac Donald , u can see it every way in Moscow

Look there.....

u never been to Moscow , if u never been to S.t. Basil's church

Gym , can be considered the most expensive shooping mall in most expensive city in the world

Tracy my friends , enjoying the ice-cream in a restaurant

Nerdy me

Finally , me in Anatomy department , i don't like the hat actually...hehe

Back to STUDY ,NOW!!!!!

My LAST DAY

2008-09-07T02:26:00.003+08:00

It is 0227 , and i am jz back from the gathering with m frenz . Well , i dun have any big farewell party , but i have all the blessing from those i love and those love me . So one more day left , this will be the last blog i post in Malaysia . If u ask me how u feel now ? I will it is kinda normal , nothing really special , but yet i still feel a bit reluctant , gonna to leave my family and frenz for about a year , or maybe longer , i gonna celebrate Christmas and eschinChinese new year overseas . Sigh...So here i wanna thz to those who always support me , give me advices , guide me , and love me , i would be vy appreciate to you all , i couldnt be what i am now without you . Well , a temporarily GOODBYE and i am sure we will meet again , my look might be different but the distance btw our hearts remain close . SO here i announce MOSCOW ,HERE I COME!!!!!

槟城,我来咯......

2008-07-27T21:05:00.012+08:00

The VERY first time .

Hey,Penang here i come . I think i have not been there for about 7-8 years , my last time was form one or two . I am getting older , sigh . So what u will think of Penang ? Foods , Penang hill ,Penang bridge and many things . So am i , my purpose of this Penang trip was to meet my friends that i knew when i was studying at Lincoln College . So dont u think it easy to reach Penang , i took me about 2 hours to reach KL then 2hours did nothing but waiting the bus . Then 4.5 hours to reach KL ,Blimey , 8++ hours , my butts were gonna burst. I stayed at Chun Weoir's house ,thanks loads to your hospitality and sorry for any inconvenience . So I'm here to show u all some foods

Laksa , is different from curry you know, it tastes sour a bit .

Ha, this is curry mee( plus mee hun i think ) , tastes a bit spicy , but is nice.

This is nice too , named "char kueh " .

Here it comes , cendol but u shall pronounce it as " cen-doi "

This is the Penang most famous "char kueh teow", look at the prawn , it makes me drool.....

This is " zhu chang fen " quite different from what i ate before , since they're in "cylinder" form .

This is not la , but chocolate caramel is darn nice o.....

Here are we , from right ( Me , chun weoir , zhu yao , and yeo ).

So this is my trip to Penang it's short but it's meaningful , the people there , the buildings there and the scenery . I hope that i can be there in the future and to meet my friends there again , dont forget me ya......

I'm drunk.....@.@

2008-06-27T12:28:00.019+08:00

Tell you something , i have nearly forgotten my blog's website address...."Gosh" . I have to go to Miss Rach's blog to link me to my own blog , how pathetic...... Well i have stopped blogging for some time ,and i have to update it quick . I'm now studying at Lincoln College Asia Pacific , but leaving soon , just a very very short course for only 2 months . Then i think most probably (97%) ,i will be going to Russia , i cant say 100% since i am still in Malaysia and not yet flying there. Maybe i would fail in my medical check up , or i die before going there ......"pray hard it wouldn't happen" .
Now i'm having a study break for a week , i don't really feel like to study but having fun with my pals who are going to Uni this Sunday. YUP , yest we had barbecue , had fun and had ALCOHOLS !!! About 20+ + of us had BBQ in my house , as the final gathering before entering Uni . First was eating then turned into Drinking Party and everyone looked like red Indian .
" Yam Seng!!!"The red Indian guys....

Best Pals....will be missing them so much...

VODKA,roars!!!!!!!

PALS......Miss them very much....

OH....The "kaki"s .(from left yew hui-Perlis, then Goh(white shirt)-USA , Melvin-Johor, Boong-KL and Lun siew Singapore).....

Try this next time,is nice.....

"Eat my leg"...i am wondering whose leg is it ?

I used to play with her like this in the class, then she will feel extremely itchy...Now no more chance lo......

"dangdang....." She is the one.....SHI YA..

The flowers.....(from right ee teen-kl , wanxin- going to Australia, kok-KL, ans shi yi -Kl soon)

DARREN Darling......How are u in Sabah ?

Everyone is leaving , sigh......I MISS U ALL SO MUCH!!!!!

mathematician+magician=mathemagician

2008-05-06T11:31:00.003+08:00

A friend of mine introduced this video clip to me . There's a thing u need to prepare before watching - A CALCULATOR .

22-04-2008 A day which defies description

2008-04-22T23:25:00.005+08:00

Over , everything is over . You can stop calling me teacher Gan anymore , i'm back to a jobless guy . Well , 2 months just flew with a blink of eyes . Today is the last day, being a teacher at SJK(c) Chung Hua Tampin . I would say that i am glad to have the chance to be a teacher , you know this might be the only chance in my life . After , i might not have the chance to experience the life of being a teacher . Let's point out what i got in these 2 months :

1)Dont talk during the class , pls pls pls ......This is something really frustrating , i shouted like a lunatic , but then none of them take an eye on me . So pls dun talk during the class , RESPECT your teacher or even lecturer . let's SAVE THEIR THROATS!!!!!!

2)Please dont think that you are smarter than the teacher so that you dun have to follow her or his instructions . I feel so annoying , when the "smarties" especially those in good classes ,don't follow my instructions and did nothing right !! Just put your hand up , when you dont understand what they are talking.

Well , i'm quite endurable , besides of these 2 points , i find nothing that will piss me off . I'm happy being a teacher , i am glad that i am the class teacher . Finally i can know what my class teacher felt last time . 2B is my class , imagine that you gotta take care 42 of them everyday , this is not really something easy ! e.g. Some when , a girl of my class came to me "Teacher i wetted my panties in toilet ." Oh Gosh , how am i going to deal with this ? i cant change for her ,can i ? Case 2 : One day , i was told by a teacher that a boy of my class have diarrhea ,and when i went to the toilet , the lower part of his body is full with "waste products" . The worst thing is i am the one who need to clean it . See, what i wanna bring out is , everyday there're loads of expectations waiting for you . I personally think that i had almost experienced the things that a teacher might have in his or her life . I had speech during assembly , i had been the class teacher , i had met the parents of theirs during Parents Day , i had caned someone till he cried , i had caned myself mistakenly and the whole class laughed non-stop and etc. Here i just wanna to say " TEACHERS , I RESPECT YOU!!!"(salute)

4B the noisiest........

Presents given by the school and students....Love them

2B(2nd group)

2B(6th group)

2B(4th group)

2B(1st group)

2B( 3rd group)

Marking exercise books , who says i am lazy ?

4H students , they are as crazy as me....

My class ,2 B ,the laziest TRIO....

2B(5th group)

My fellow colleague , who looks older ? haha

Call me "Sir" !!!

2008-02-26T23:48:00.003+08:00

Hey , i'm back to blog !! Well , i dont really have time to blog actually , mountains of exercise books are waiting me . Kindly to be informed that i'm now a primary school teacher(temporary , no way to be a permanent one...hehe) but yet i'm a nanny too . See! Life is bitter than the Form six's one , wake up at 6am then non-stop till 6pm . Then back to home , still have to mark the exercise books and plan what to teach tommorow . If you think i hate these all then you are actually wrong!! Well , i did say my life is "hard" but i take these all as challenges , who knows this'll be the only time i have the chance to teach in school . So JUST DO IT !! But to be frank it's not easy to be a teacher , if you think is so free as their working time is short , then you are absolutely wrong . Plan what to teach is not something easy , you gotta finish the syllabus jz in time neither faster nor slower . Then just imagine when you go into prim. 1 class and all the students are making noise ., then you gotta shout . Dont think shouting is a piece of cake , you gotta shout all the time and the worst is you gotta shout EVERYDAY ! SHOUT,SHOUT ,SHOUT!!!!!!! Arghh..........Finally , no more voice.....Like a frog...

Time at nursery school......

2008-01-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

Yea, i'm now a so called "teacher" , some of the kids call me teacher Gan, some call me "go go"(cantonese) and the worst some call me "auntie Gan" !! Hey , i'm still a man ok ?!! Well , i am not really get angry , in fact i'm happy to see their innocent , haha..... These are some picz to show you the kids over there.

Cheese!!!!

Fun time , playing water in the swimming pool

Him again......Carrying the bench.....

He is only 3 ++ years old , a good boy !!!

The cutie and his friend, so so adorable......

hou mun and i , his eyes are so "BIG"....

hmm... let me " see " who are you .........

Hmm......

2008-01-14T11:42:00.000+08:00

Year 2008 is here , a new begining , a new start everything is new.......Well , the coming of a new year normally shows something good , nice . It would be quite different for year 2008 , it doesnt seem so well coz the passing away of them really struck me . Life is so short!!! Well , i'm now a nanny(it's not a good word for me though ) . Actually i am now a teacher at a nusery school , kinda day care centre , you know ? I'm quite happy with this , though i do not care much with the salary but yet i do a little . Fine , experience is the most important thing i should say , looking after the kids is not something easy . hmm....i dont really want to blog at this moment , maybe leisure life doesnt motivate me to blog , but if you ask me i will tell you what i'm doing now . I dont have the mood to type ."Then what are you doing here ?" you might ask. i'm here to tag people. last time one of my friend called me to do so , coz she tagged me las time . well i found that this would be a good time , coz i have other people to tag too .(Not just for you ya , haha......."wink")

so here i come , 7 people i wanna to tag

7. miss ** , you need to care about your words , u have once made me angry , pls.......

6. Benson ,you pls don't be so impetuous , you spoil everything ,take my word man!!

5.Dawn , you must be tough ya. I know you can make it , the leaving of her surely hurt you . Never mind , god is still there .

4. Melvin, i really want to know who ** is . well,this guy went to yamcha with us last night but spent almost 30 minutes with his phone . Tell me la....

3. Rachel . Hey , rest la ,u do need to take a break . Dont collapse as i always said i dont want to lose a friend .Pls take care of yourself........

2.Shiyee, random pick

1 . Gan TSai Sheng , wake up man !!!! u have been so moody recently !!! Where's ur morale ?

That's all , time to eat , bye !! Here are some picz have a look on them !!

Normal , then.......

CRAZY!!!!!haha.....i cant "tahan" him...

i dont know why ?

2007-12-31T13:48:00.000+08:00

Hullo....i am bzck again , i'm soo moody recently..... I don't know why ,perhaps hormones , YES , HORMONES!!!! Finally 2007 comes to the end ,it is a fine year , and yet is a tough year too . I would say that i enjoy my upper six life , though there are loads of "pressure" . "STPM i'm gonna to kill u , i don't hope to be ,i don't want to be , but i'll be " i think many ppl will not be unfamiliar with his phrase . Yeah , this is the caption of my MSN, and i use it to "inspire" myself. Stpm is the biggest ,the most tremendous challenge of mine in year 2007 . And thz God i'm still in in one piece . There's another challenge - "ONE WAY" christmas celebration on 21st of DEC . The celebration was great and i consider that it's succeeded ............i don't know what to write about , i'm so moody , i need some time.....haha(finally a forced laugh)......

Happy birthday.......

2007-12-14T01:49:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you , hope u ll have a joyful day.......
Thankz God for bringing you to the world and thankz for the guidance of u . OF course not the least dearest parents ,who work so hard to make u have a better life . Father and mother i love you (F.A.M.I.L.Y)!!!!!!! To frenz too , u are so so important , thz for caring and loving . Finally thz everyone , MUACKZ..........

am i regreting ?

2007-12-06T15:18:00.000+08:00

Finally exam is over........No more hollering in my house , the messy study table has disappeared , everything goes back to normal.... Holidays come, but i don't really have a good plan to go for....Any suggestion man? if u want me to visit ur house and mess it , it wouldn't be a problem , or u want to "lim teh" ,i can accompany u till ur stomach burst.... The point is I'm so so so so FREE!!!! Tell u something , yest after the drama practising at church , we went for futsal at about 10 . Long time never touch the ball, darn tiring . we finished the game at 11:30 ( actually this will be the time that we normally start the game.....hehe....) Then went to mamak stall to have some drinks and eat then chit-chat , blah blah blah.......until 1 am. Then went back and watch tv till 3am , then sleep until now, here is the question what is the time now ?

p/s if u know the time ,u are kindly asked not to tell my mom , u know the consequent ,don't u......

I believe i can FLY!!!!!!!!

2007-12-04T12:51:00.000+08:00

evrything is over.......I am in the cloud nine now......YEAH!!!!!!

Feel my happiness?

"i believe i can fly, i believe i can touch the sky,i think about it every night and day........" Fly high........

LOST

2007-12-02T17:08:00.000+08:00

I'VE LOST

With no excuse but thz God......

Coming!!!!!

2007-10-19T18:11:00.000+08:00

hey.....I've been missing for ages , never blog for a long long time.......Ya, i dun even have time to take a deep breath , coz IT'S COMING !!!!!! Gosh , i cant imagine the day it comes: the whole world is dark , earthquake , ppl who are going face it will scream , cry and noone will save them!!!! Fine,i choose to find a vent in imagining something stupid..... MY life is "ok" thz for those who always concer about me , i am still alive ,i still can hop , i still can scream , my heart is still beating ,theoretically from what i have learnt from biology i am still ALIVE . Books are there waiting for me , i need strength........ POWER please........

http://x.imeem.com/WQ-s3sKkPm?d=1
(how do you think? i mean the melody and the lyrics )

I love u...........

2007-09-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

"What!!!!" One aunty shouted (cant probably remember her face) . She looked pale after answering the call.
"Are you ok? Anything?" i asked her curiosly
"erm.....your dad.....erm....." she stammered
"what is that ? what going on to my dad? i couldn't wait to know what's going on
"He....he......he met an accident and......"
"And WHAT!!!!?????" i was getting nervous
"He....he....is...DEAD.......He had a car crash , everyone in the car was survived but unluckly he was not......I am so sorry" the tears jz flow out from her eyes
"WHAT??!!!........NO....No....impossible......" i couldn't believe this , i was taken aback...."How come"
I was totally speechless at that moment , i never think of this , how am i going to survive without my dad? my mOm will be heart shattered , "HOW.................

"Ring........ring........." Something annoying keep disturbing beside my ears . Oh , it was jz a dream , i was sweating . I was so relief , it was jz dream , luckily it was a dream.......i thanked to God immediately , my feeling at that time was defied description....... I jz found that i am so lucky that it was only a dream......My dad is still sleeping on his cozy bed now , he is still there.......

Dad i love you Forever......... I LOVE you!!!!!!! This is the thing i wanna say now.... I LOVE U!!!!

Gibberish

2007-09-03T12:10:00.000+08:00

P/s ignore this entry if you have something to do........

Until this moment i only know that the computers in the library are available for us to online......

i have no mood to sing ,no mood to play ,no mood to do anything but studying......i will have STPM trial on tomorrow , imagine that if examination is not the only way for us to get into university ,how wonderful the life will be........ but imagination also diverges from reality.......

Actually i love form six life , no no i like it only.......I've learnt many things which i never heard before this , but you really need a great determination......LIfe full of exams , tests , homeworks , lab experiments , tuitions(especially Maths!!!!) , and bla bla bla.......television is no more always beside you , midnight "limteh" have to be reduced ,no more hangging around shopping malls (not that serious , i jz exaggerate to afraid the form 5 students who intend to enter form six)

ARgh........what am i doing now?!!! i should go back and start to memorize the dull facts....... i am wasting time actually......or relax myself after a "strenous" brain excersise would be a reasonable excuse??!!

so CALLED holidays.......

2007-08-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

" u will have a week of holidays , hope u ll enjoy it ." This phrase is so so so sarcastic , dun lie man ,u will not expect us to enjoy it,will u , huh ?!!! I dont think this is holidays.....Absolutely NOPE!!!!

MOn* 4 hours of Maths tuition(Malacca)
Tues* 3 hours in school(again maths ) and 1 hour in Malacca( maths again , should be 3 bt thz God only 1 hour)
Wed * 3 hours (Maths againx2 ) then chem 2 hours and youth activities 2 hours........Hell......
Thurs * 3 hours of Maths tuition( aaaaagggggggggaain , i going to become Issac NEwton)
Fri * Blogging.......I think would be better ,erm.......Should be.......

do u all consider this as holidays? Or i should call it as "tuitiondays".........Fine!!!!! wht to do ? i am a sixth form boy i should bare these all , WAKE UP!!!!!!! Stand and fight with them , kill them..........

" i dun hope to be ,i wanna to be and i WILL be........ "

so CALLED holidays.......

cureless

2007-08-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Sorry NO cure

i finally understand what it means.........Sigh.....

SAY NO to smoking..........

2007-08-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

BAD things.......

I cant really understand why there are so many ppl keep smoking since they know the consequences........

Today i went to Seremban to have a meeting right after church service , i went there by bus.(Not to mention the name of that bus company) . i have my headphone around my ears while listening to some musics......After paying for the bus ticket i choose a nice place( *definition for nice here is ,a seat where i can stretch me legs.......u know ,Tall people) .i was happy at that moment but suddenly i smelt some unpleasant odour ,where i could see some smoke wafting gradually from behind.OH...........NOOOOOOO......someone was smoking,and he sat jz right behind me..... i have an idea at that moment , can i turn back and pull out the cigarette which was between his lips and scold him " u got no brain do u? smoke smoke smoke ,never smoke before this ?!!!!!!" What to do ? i can jz did as what i thought and certainly i ll have some nasty rewards...... I prevented the air from entering nose and mouth ,and breathed after a few seconds,though this sounds so stupid......... If u wanna smoke PLS go to smokery

Hey man, i think u need to go back to standard one and relearn what even a standard one student able to understand !!!!!!!! And i'm kind enough to tell u some of the consequences of smoking :

1) higher probability to get lung cancer

2) die faster

3) bad breathing

4) affect ur sexual life

5) make people who inhales ur second hand smoke have higher probability to get lung cancer

6) air pollution
And the last , u are destroying the EARTH!!!!!!

SAY NO TO SMOKING !!!!!!!!!!

DOUTBFUL

2007-08-11T12:58:00.000+08:00

Doubtful stuff

something that i always see and doubt about......

do u think kiss your boyfriend or girlfriend is something good? What i mean is not like, kiss on his/her cheek but mouth to mouth (e.g. French kiss) involving tongues, get me?
Should this happen? kiss 'coz the feeling comes and in that situation kiss will tell your another part ,how much u love him/her?

p/s i have no offence to those who had or having this , but jz to get your opinion(s) . i am on the fence but personally i dont agree.....

Procedure before entering the toilet........so so PROFESSIONAL!!!

2007-08-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

Final step before entering the toilet......put them UP !!! Choose any colour of slippers u wan...

2nd step......Toilet registeration....Write ur name ,time and class....

first step.....Pas keluar......Greenish!!!!

5 things that i dislike in my school........

2007-08-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

....."brilliant" method........to make sure no
illegal "workers".......ABSURD

5 things that i dislike in my school :

1)can u pls let me arv at school later than 7:35am ? pls...... i need sufficient sleep ,form six is tiring ,i dun wan to be a coffee addict.....And Mr Black pls dun stand at the gate ,u are eyesore.....hehe

2)can u pls give us more fans in the class as well as the Lab? is HOT u know?! oh....i heard someone said this " we ll have air-conds in our labs next year " , DXXX , why dun do it this year? ARGGGGGGHHHHH........

3)pls dun make the "koperasi" like a food(keropok) ,fruit stall? imagine selling fruit in a "koperasi" , should i say this is a good or a stultification stuff? and of course the expensive fruits ,"Mr Ray, agree with me?" Dun be greedy ,jz sell what u should and stop the unnecessary stuff.......though the keropok is nice what about sell them elsewhere?

4)i have to admit the cleanliness of the toilets have a vy significant improvement but can we stop wearing slippers ? really inconvenient.....if someone has a vy urgent natural call and he cant wait even a minute to release ,should him wear the slippers? some more, some idiots wetted the slippers and u know we are wearing socks.One more thing ,we are needed to write our names down before we use the toilet ,preposterous indeed......do u think this is a good way to control the smokers? NO!!!! it's fussy.......

5) i dislike the existing of these stupid things.......

Wrath

2007-07-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

No more "clothes hunt" games...NO MORE....U really provoked my wrath........The thing is like this .....Today my dad ,bro and i are going to have a pot luck dinner at somebody's shop . we supposed to get ready at about 7:20pm,thn i think i can get myslf up in jz a minute ,so i jz hangging around and talking nonsense with my bro(he was not listening but concentrated on his POK online games,hell u) ,somemore playing guitar......*bad thing is drawing near(sounds:deng....deng....) I thn went into my room and ready to choose clothes and pants , i purposely want to wear the Giodarno shirt , coz i have left it there for a long time...Ok,i started to flip over my clothes and keep looking for that clothes , and i couldn't find it.....Fine,i have a second,third ,fourth ransack.....and i still couldnt get it....Even i went for my sis's ,bro's , mom's ,dad's wardrobes and the result was jz the same...... thn i called my maid , and i started to interrogate her, she gave me a naive look,FINE!!!! I thn called her to help me to find it out, she went through all the places i did jz now and of course we got the same result....At this vy moment , i could sense something bad is coming,and the next moment......."Hey......are you ready?!!!!!We are late!!!!"holler from my dad...... I'm "geram" now,i couldn't get the clothes and my dad is hollering downstair...And SHE was having a vy slow.....slow.....slow.....searching!! ARGH!!!!!! i changd my mind and get another clothes and ran into the car.......And i had a lecture from my dad , and bla bla bla from my house to the destination........What to say? my fault again ,i shouldn't have maid ,i shouldn't call her to help me, i SHOULD call her sit there and i do everything for her!!!!!........Sigh......we muz learn to forgive ,i must say....Forget about it.....NOw is 12am something and i still cant find the clothes........

This is the "lost sheep" i am finding now.......

The day.....

2007-07-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

It is 1am something ady........Dunno y i dun even feel sleepy tonight,perhaps the "pig brain soup" that my mom forced me to drink.......Nope ,i think i swallowed it......Ya,i cant endure the odour......the brain was like "tao fu fa ",and imagine it swimming in side your mouth....OH!!!!GOSH!!!! Is disgusting.....i can still smell the odour now...... I Swear i wun eat it anymore ,though ppl say it does nourish ur brain,improve your memory and bla bla bla.......... i WILL NOT take it again......Who want to have a try ,u are very welcomed,and i ll deliver it to your house myself,no matter how far you are........want? Today is quite normal,except playing "wrestling"( a stupid games created by yew hui,meaningless) at school, nothing much else happen.... Platyhelminthes,chestoda,Lycosa,Helix,carcharodon...........these are the things which i am bz of recently,form 6 chapter 22nd-Biodiversity......Irritating beyond irritation(i wonder i quoted this from who).....what to do ?i can only memorize and memorize untill my brain burst and bleed and my brain........Oh it makes me think of the piggy.....NO!!!!!!

So called wrestling.......the creator(right one)....and of course the victim(left one)......Ever played?

The vy begining......

2007-07-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

hey.......well ,i'm a newcomer ,know nothing,indeed!!!! Lend me ur hand pls....... Tat's all for today.....0050 now.....Gonna sleep.......By the way ,do u know what does chant à mon coeur means? give me ur answer and i ll give u a bar of chocolate if u got it......Adieu.....

Complicated way ,simple me

突然好想你-五月天 很好听.....

Something i accidentally saw

Thank You.,..

Love YOU

Sorry

I thought

I'm happy, even joyful....

Happy Chinese New Year

Jiayou!!!!

A short update....."Finally!!!"

Random post

A haPPy FAMILY day...YEah!!

Opening a fruit stall soon...

I found that....hehe

Finally here it comes my update....

Finally it comes....haha.

SoLitUde..

To HER....

She, who is currently in HEAVEN....

A NEW FRESH day....

Food....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!!

I can see everything....

I would very much hope....

My life...

Why?????

HaPpy VaLeNTine's DaY

I AM GOING BACK......

Me...(Part 1)

I wanna.....

Happy Chinese New Year

......

2009...New year,New me-New you

A good day

tasisheng is now in MOSCOW

My LAST DAY

槟城,我来咯......

I'm drunk.....@.@

mathematician+magician=mathemagician

22-04-2008 A day which defies description

Call me "Sir" !!!

Time at nursery school......

Hmm......

i dont know why ?

Happy birthday.......

am i regreting ?

I believe i can FLY!!!!!!!!

LOST

Coming!!!!!

I love u...........

Gibberish

so CALLED holidays.......

cureless

SAY NO to smoking..........

DOUTBFUL

Procedure before entering the toilet........so so PROFESSIONAL!!!

5 things that i dislike in my school........

Wrath

The day.....

The vy begining......

突然好想你-五月天很好听.....